for yx...

wahahha.. now i got enuf posts or not?

sometimes i am pretty amazed about wat i can do... things like blogging so much at this ungodly hour.

right~... think i didn't anything much during the mid term break.. so unproductive. tsk tsk. need to buck up.

but i didn't say it was unfruitful did i? ;p



i can't bear to know that i am left out of any conversation or gathering.. it feels weird. so i will always do my best to be there. cos i'm afraid that i may miss out the best part of my life.

sw visit

had both my sw visits today.

it opened my eyes to alot of things.

there are alot of people who need help.
there are alot of compassionate people who wants to make a difference.
anybody can give and contribute.
alot of help is given to the needy.
alot of people out there do not know that they can get help.
ren2 jian1 you3 qing2.


anyone can make a differnce in people's life. a helping hand, a smile, a word of concern, can lift people up and change their lives.

this reminds me of a movie i have watched before. 'paying it forward' acted by the boy in 'sixth sense'. you will never know wat a small action could bring about. so flap your wings and start creating a tornado half a globe away!

the movie with 3 views

finally had the chance to watch 'i not stupid too'. it has been three weeks since it started showing in the cinemas and with the movie crossing the 3mil mark, it is definitly THE show of the year.

the first view came quickly after i have announced my intention to watch the movie. HE replied: 'i am not going to support jack neo.' and wat came after that was, 'because he is saying that the parents are wrong.' therefore he did not watch the moive.

the second view came after the watching the movie. SHE said: 'not as nice as 'i not stupid', but quite touching.' and... yes.. the next line was, 'those are just special cases, not likely will happen in real life, so don't you dare think of using the movie to argue with me in the future'.

finally, my view. when i first heard that there is going to be a sequel of 'i not stupid', it was like 'ok~. will watch it cos it should be as funny as the first.' then later on, got to know more about the film through the tv and found out that the movie revolve around the theme of shang3 shi2 jiao4 yu4 ( if i'm not wrong, it's educating through appreciation and recognition of effort put in).

it came across to me as a method/direction of teaching that has a huge potential. just like in the start of the movie, two sentences were flashed on the black screen. 'when was the last you have praised someone?' and 'when was the last time you have been praised by someone?'.

and indeed, in this society where things that were done right, were supposed to be done right and where things that were done wrong, were heavily penalised, how often is one praised for doing something and how often were people not criticising wat others have done?

well, i admit that too much praised makes my head grow big, but really, there are times that i wish someone could just praise me without having to add the 'but...'. it will almost be like i struck toto if my parents ever do praise me without the 'but..'. i know that parents mean well by not praising their kids too much cos they hope that their kids to be humble BUT to the extent that it makes someone feel useless or don't live up to standard, thats cruel.

one of the character in the movie sums up the side effects of parents being stingy with praises very well. 'in your eyes, everything that i do is not right. and everything i did right was not good enough.' there was a period of time when i had really felt like that when the criticisms/naggings/comments/suggestions from my parents come my way. it seems like i am always trying very hard to be the perfect child that they hope to have.. or feel despair when i could reach their expectations. then, slowly, i came to realise that it's like an impossible dream to meet. and so, i've learn to be happy even though i may not have met others' expectations of me, cos i have met my own expectations of myself.

acknowledging people's worth is like wat the movie says 'having a key that opens people's hearts and minds'. and it is something that we all should learn to do.


ending with one of my favorite lines in the movie, 'there is no one that does not know how to learn, but only people who don't know how to teach.'

v'day

21 days of v'days since my birth, and i have never celebrated it with anyone. to other's, it is a special day, full of promise of romance. to me, just another ordinary day to get by.

if i ever did celebrate, it was with friends, just walking around or having dinner together..

time flies, unbeknownst to me, it has been almost 3 yrs plus of being single. funny thing is that i have not dwelled much on this topic too much in these pass 3 yrs. fleeting thought, yes, but never for too long. my love life is almost like distilled water. it's like my life.. too plain for my liking, but i couldn't possibly toss it about to make it more interesting right?


a passivist in love.

i forgot to bring my coursepack for lecture quiz..

i forgot there is a stats test tmr..



what is wrong with me?!!

HEADache

right.. have a big headache now as the above title has stated..

presents are something that are hard to buy. and to have to buy one in three days time..... is a nightmare to me!! argh!

why i always get myself into this kind of undesirable position??


i don't seem to have the ability to dceipher what ppl want. wat ppl need are easier to see than wat they want.. but many a times, wat ppl need may not be wat they want.

so... end up not giving the right present.

then again.. don't think alot of my friends have any needs cos i think many young ppl's needs are well taken care of these days.

so... don't know wat present to buy.

usually i just go for things that ppl say they want and buy those as presents. a little mei xing yi but at least they will be happy to get wat they want.

however, alot of ppl don't know wat they want. or too paiseh to say. or they want ppl to guess and have the anticipation of getting a present which they did not know before hand wat was inside.

so.... that's why i ended up with a big headache.

yes!

haha.. did well in japanese class today, though i came in late and without the task sheet =p

hmm.. how i wish my tc classes can be like my ta and tb..

really need to catch up on my readings.. not good to drag.

ok, will finish them on sat.. in the mean time, finish the current ones first.

shifting of gear

it seems like i am in a different gear altogether this year..

a different attitude towards studies, a different momentum...

and it changes the way things are coming back to me.. it's like the environment has changed cos i changed. it seems so simple but yet powerful.

time has become a different meaning.. with not much to spare. i seem to have the ability to fill it up.

the actions that i take everyday seem to improve my knowledge, skills and confidence. tutorials are never the same again with me being able to ask intellectual qns and give answers when when i used to be the hesitating one. i end up enjoying more classes.

i became more conscientious in wat i do. having more responsibility. feeling satisfied that i have accomplished much each day.

breaks/slacking periods become bonuses/presents that i give myself for working hard.. no longer feeling guilty for slacking cos i know i did enough..

maybe in the midst of all this i may have neglected a few friends but i believe when the hols come, i'll make it up for them.

the friend they knew hasn't gone missing. if they need me, i'll still be there. but no more wasting of time when there are things to be done.

so, before the hols start, ganbatte!! i will succeed.

truly a new beginning..

ok.. performance appraisal..

for the pass few weeks,

had read thru chapters that the lecturers taught till.
did my readings before my tutorials.
listening to lectures and taking notes
revised daily. almost..

occassional/permanent skipping of sw lectures which is too boring, not good for the brain..
lagging in one sw webcast..
lagging in sw readings, which are absolutely impossible to finish..
lagging in one chap for i/o psy and 2 chap for stats..
*impt, pls take note* have taken too many days slacking and chatting on skype..

conclusion: i have almost reformed the slacker in me

thank goodness the hols are coming.. need to do some catching up

chinese new year

this year's new year is a little special cos we get to celebrate it over the weekend and plus two additional day of public holidays, so no more rushing to bai nian.

but then i ended up feeling like i have too many free days.. spent the last day of the cny holiday 'trying' to study.. think at least i got some readings done

another difference of this new year from the past one was that this year's angbao was cut by more than half!! not that i am glad about it.. sigh..


this post looks like shit.. rusty from blogging liao