wat will happen, will happen
wat won't happen, won't happen..

i won't let anything happen



haha.. study until sot liao.. but the above is suppose to be in chinese.. something stupid that i thot about to amuse myself..

ktv was great.. another round of english songs with old old self made mtv.. haha.. welcome to the english singing gang sooli!!

think i'm the only one that selects chinese songs..

best discovery.. ah ya's chua bing ge!! gets ppl supper high.. hahahaha

conclusion of the day: i get super cranky when i have not enuf sleep, a headache and am made to wait.. totally not a good combi..

sorry for scaring ppl today and spoiling mood..


sigh.. i don't know... my temper is getting shorter and shorter it seems.. patience seems to be fading away from my dictionary.. maybe i've been waiting for too many ppl for too long..

then again.. it's not really the waiting part.. not really about the ppl being late part.. i've waited for more than an hr for ppl and my temper was still fine.. i think it's the waiting aimlessly and end up finding myself in a situation where my wait was for nothing, that actually i don't have to wait and could have done something else durint that waiting time that bothers me.. maybe is the left hanging feeling that i don't like..

waiting is not a nice feeling..


not angry.. just something that i realised..

downstair's having resident's night by the RC and next to it is a malay family having their birthday celebration..

i have no idea how someone can allow two events to clash like that.. and the music from both side are getting louder and louder.. and trust me.. they don't mix well..

so much for racial harmony..

they have started using the new clementi bus interchange liao and closed the old one..

so ppl go to the new one to take bus to school k? don't blur blur go to the old one..

for those who don't understand the dialect..

the short ad is about the aunties boasting about how accomplished their children are, the high pay that their children are getting and how busy they are.. then when they came to the last aunty, she didn't say much, just said that her son is coming to fetch her to go on a trip.. and that everytime they will bring her along for trips..

Petronas CNY 2006 Ad

recommended by louisa..

makes you think about wat is more impt in your life..

u know that the people around you are muggers when central library turns into the no.1 place to go on a date

glad that hell month passed.. finally got time to breathe..

i have decided to be hardworking from this week onwards and come school to study everyday.. so expect to see me mon to saturday in the central library studying till ten or later.. might come down on sundays too..

learning to study for life.. not for the moment..

want to thank alot of ppl today..

big thanks to...

sooli who drove me out to holland v for lunch and back to sch..
yunxian for helping me proof read to see if it was a 'sw paper'..
justina for answering my one thousand and one qns on the paper..
teresa for her suggestions on conclusion of the paper..
sharon for ever so patient to edit the horrendous piece of paper..
body for being there.. online.. replying though she is busy..
eil for her 'jia you' sms when i needed it most..
chin han for ur encouragement too!

ohoh.. and thanks to sam i have bei bei mian dinner!!! came all the way from hall to give me..

wah.. do one paper also can get so many ppl involved..

wat's it with the freaking floor????? if i don't mop it today will die is it? it's not like i am outside having fun or wat.. i have been putting myself in this bloody store to finish a bloody paper ok!! not play! which part of it don't u get???

yes, i know i told u i would do it today but i really don't have time.. i know wat a promise means.. you don't have to so harsh to me... and i freaking don't always find excuses for watever things i didn't do.. there is something called valid reasons ok???!!! maybe nothing is valid in ur eyes.. maybe watever i say u think is rubbish that i am just finding some excuse to cover my ass.. but i'm not..NOT.. do u get it?

why do i even bother to ask? of course u'll never get wat i mean..

how come i don't enjoy solitude anymore?

am i too used to having company?

i used to do things wherever and whenever i like.. not thinking about who is doing it with me.. now.. i feel uncomfortable when i'm all by myself doing things..

i think i need a break.. from everything and everyone.. to think.. to find back my balance..

i no longer know wat i'm doing is right or wrong..

i'm lost..



it's very hard to argue over msn.. i guess there are some things technology can't do..

very arguementative this few day.. don't like..


argh.. i don't know wat's wrong with me.. and nothing's helping..

haven't been feeling too great lately (today)..

from a third person's pt of view.. i think my mood can be said to be a bit depressive..

don't know wat's wrong with me.. just feel like hiding somewhere and not doing anything..

i need help.. sigh..

writing essays are no fun..

i wonder why i'm in arts.. sigh..

ppl tend to fall back into wat they are most comfortable with.. exploring unknown areas is not an easy thing to do.. the uncertainty.. the fear..

usually i wait for ppl to tell me things.. ppl are only willing to tell how much they are comfortable to divulge..

maybe if i were to put it simply..

to remind myself of wat i did, wat i did not do and wat i could have done..

to remind myself not to do the same thing again..

well.. it's not really that wat i wrote was encrypted.. just couldn't find the right words to say it..

sitting at the back of the room listening to sw's internals brings back memories of my own..

things i've done and said cannot be changed.. but the feeling of regret still lingers..

looking at the internals from a bystander's view, widens my mind, not really mind.. but cannot find word to say..

accepted the outcomes.. trying to do my best and hope that things turn out well..

u asked me why i put the rope there.. i put it there as a reminder..


side note.. cheryl looks very ugly fanning herself with the mushroom fan..

totally tired out.. sleeping only 4hrs a day is no joke.. can die ah..

but happy that i finally finish the paper..


one more to go.. don't know how long i can last if this continues..

one late paper.. considering my past record.. think this it the best already.. shall hand in sw paper on time..

was a busy busy week.. been in sch till 11plus everyday.. doing society stuff.. doing hw.. or attempting to do so.. very tired..

been quite snappy and mean too..

really need some rest..


on a lighter note.. some things never change..

eight months have passed but weird/interesting/funny (how should i classify them?) things still happen when there is us huh? in just one week.. sightings in the library.. eil's surprise ice cream 'cake'.. sw agm.. running after last bus when we thot there was no more.. but this time a bit freaky.. haha..

wallet? handphone? pendant?


ooohhhh... wanted to post about my day with mum the other day.. totally hilarious..

it was her first official driving-with-approval-without-dad day too.. therefore the two little siao zao bo were so happy driving on their own to orchard with shopping in mind and no male supervision..

along the way, she kept praising herself for driving so well and giving comments here and there about some lousy driving we saw.. haha.. very yaya.. made me pengz with laughter listening to her..

and she was cheap thrilling at the carpark.. keep driving in and out of the parking lot so that it is hundred percent straight.. cos she said since we had all the time in the world and no car behind to rush her, must park nice nice mar.. think we at least went in and out ten times before she's satisfied with it..

a fruitful trip.. hadn't had such fun time with mum for a long time..

tired ah....

sitting in a hospital waiting with a newspapper in the hand.. one can know alot.. for a non-shopaholice to know more than two shopaholics about vivocity.. u can imagine how much info i got from the papers..


oops.. fell asleep while blogging this post.. guess i'm really tired out.. anyway.. let's continue..


think i'm gonna die for my forensics paper.. how to crap up 5 page of stuff?? somemore there are very few books about my topic..


sitting in sch and looking at the small dates printed on the receipts are really torture for the eyes..


can conclude that our 'attempt' at a surprise celebration for eil went quite well despite a lack of cake and time.. mint ice cream rocks!! hahaha

the comments hurt.. but not as much as they used to..

i believe i have given up on seeking ur praise and approval..

throat hurts.. very tired..

today's meeting was so loooonnng... 10am to 6pm.. sit until butt rot.. but discussed alot of things..

though weather was bad, we had alot of fun at mid autumn festival.. play alot of games and made ourselves silly.. ate alot of food too.. and i manage to catch last bus! haha..

ok.. cannot make it liao.. shall sleep..

finally got the chance to breathe a bit after yesterday's test..

i forgot how simple and straight forward sicence gem test can be.. but it also makes it scarier cos u don't know how much to write..

ah well.. 2 more papers to go and a pri sch essay to write.. and an agenda to think thru..



haze is bad.. visibility is low.. yesterday's walk to the bus stop looked like i was in some dream land with that fogginess.. the throat is starting to hurt.. hope my ma is ok.. asthma ppl don't do too well with polluted air..

yupyup.. so ppl, take care! drink more water and wear a mask! hahahaha

i was very touched just now by wat u said.. just paiseh.. so keep saying i write very simple..

but.. yar.. thanks..

it would have been hard to imagine that two ppl who are so different can make friends with each other and stand by each other when shit poured for these past few months..

i remembered telling someone this some time ago.. that if it wasn't for the tonnes of things that keep cropping up during our course of interaction, our friendship probably won't have come this far.. cos we are so different.. the world we live in.. the ppl we know.. the way we think.. the way we perceive things.. the way we were trained when we were growing up..

but yar.. life is unpredictable and nothing is impossible i guess.. hahah



wanted to copy a poem on friendship that i found many years ago, so went to flip my autograph book...

didn't realise / or i might have forgot that i have left a trail in so many ppl's lives and theirs in mine.. touched beyond words by wat some wrote.. and others.. they just bring me back to the time we met and the things that we went thru together..

my book of memories..


anyway.. the poem..
to you and every one of my friends out there..
and if u are wondering if u are one.. yes u too!


Knowing You
i wish i could say
exactly what's in my mind
but words seem too foolish
so i write them instead

i have something to tell you
i really want you to know
just how special you've become
as i watch our friendship grow

i used to worry about what to say
and if you judge my thoughts
but since you've gotten closer
most of the insecurities were forgotten

i haven't really told you
what difference you made
and i'm so glad i have met you
so glad i've stayed

just thinking of you
brings a smile to my face
and sharing things with you
makes it feels like a safe place

some people touch life
and never really know
the strength that is given
when the heart can grow

i am better of knowing
the person you've shown me
i am wearing your smile
and wish you could see

so, though i mght not say
knowing these words are for you
a little foolish.. maybe
but true

great.. i'm going crazy.. so says the two woman sitting beside me...

sigh.. really cannot make it liao.. maybe i'm really going crazy... maybe..

this poster making thing is argh!

this shows how much 'creativity' i have.. i need my creative ppl!!! where are u all??

damn hard to do anything without a sub comm.. so.. join me! haha.. all are welcome.. best is come with IT skills.. know designing...

i am desperate!!!

sigh.. somebody.. save me..

i'm tired of arguing with u.. why do u always think that u are always right.. and i don't need sarcasm in my life.. don't u know respect must be earned.. not just cos u are 20 over years older than me means i must respect u.. if u don't do or say things that command respect... wat do u want me to say..