hmmmmmmmm.

sigh.

hmm...

yar.. no idea how to write. words are not forming sentences in my head. i wonder if this will be permanent.

maybe i'm too tired. maybe i need a rest.

do i think too much? haha.. don't use to. where did i pick up the habit?

i could totally understand wat bones was talking abt... being impervious vs being strong.. i used a similar analogy when i was describing to my friend that my lack of emotional response has nothing to do with high EQ.. having a detached personality is different from having a high EQ..

that aside... i think i need to learn to be stronger too.. and lose a little impervious-ness..

sometimes i wonder if we are all frail on the inside and hard on the outside..

we seem to pretend that we are good at things, that we can cope, that we believe and we trust.. but day in and day out, we question ourselves, we wonder if we are that strong, that we are able to pull through the day...

i used to feel that i was an empty egg shell, that if i were cracked, there is nothing inside. nothing of substance.. so i try and try to fill it up... i have been working very hard, bit by bit, step by step.. it was an arduous journey.. but now, i feel that i can tell ppl i am of some substance.. that i am not empty.. that, even if i crack, i had something to show inside, that i am not nothing..

i hope.. one day... i can help others do the same.. to find themselves... to believe in them..

today was bad.. like i have 10x pms.. lol.. sigh..

didn't know wat got into me.. sian..

i'm in a depressive mood today.. sian.. why why why?

maybe it's all in my mind... maybe it's not so complicated.. maybe it's not so overwhelming..

i feel like i'm not maximizing my time at work.. how??

need to find my momentum..

孙燕姿 - 愚人的国度

作词：李焯雄 孙燕姿 作曲：李偲菘

爱是愚人的国度

看我们演的好辛苦

是你所谓的领悟

我不懂 我不哭

看悲欢喜怒每一步

是疲惫还是依赖的束缚

来 你能不能再重复

让我懂 让我哭

再让时间停住 把自己看清楚

不必再说假如 我穿过一地荒芜

幸福 不能碰触

爱是愚人的国度

不能自拔 不懂退出

我们都回不去最初

曾美丽 但还是不满足

爱是自愚 愚人演出

答案清楚 才能谢幕

剧情 是笑 是哭

爱是愚人的国度

看我们演的好辛苦

是你所谓的领悟

我不懂 我不哭

看悲欢喜怒每一步

是疲惫还是依赖的束缚

来 你能不能再重复

让我懂 让我哭

再让时间停住 把自己看清楚

不必再说假如 我穿过一地荒芜

幸福 不能碰触

爱是愚人的国度

不能自拔 不懂退出

我们都回不去最初

曾美丽 但还是不满足

爱是自愚 愚人演出

答案清楚 才能谢幕

剧情 是笑 是哭

爱是愚人的国度

不能自拔 不懂退出

我们都回不去最初

怎么爱 还是不满足

爱是自愚 愚人演出

答案清楚 才能谢幕

结局 是笑 是哭

my goodness.. where did all the cds go? i wanted to buy one cd and i had to go to hmv to get it cos there is totally no place selling cds now...

maybe it was all pms... but i'm still disturbed by the incident.

sigh....

i think the ppl who come into our lives, were there for a reason..

sometimes the reason is clear...

sometimes the reason is hidden.. only when the person is gone then it gets revealed..

sometimes it may not make any sense... but the whole is make up of many parts.. maybe they form the parts that seem to not make sense on its own but when u look back in your life, they were indispensable..

will i ever know wat is the reason behind me meeting you?

sometimes i wonder if i have any effect on the ppl i have met... do i change them for the better.. or worse.. or maybe... i have left no marks behind..

lol... so egocentric... but i'm really curious.. will i ever know?

i wonder if we get a summary of our deeds when we die.. i would like to know wat were the things that i have done that were worth recording..

that fool is a nice romantic comedy k drama.. i really think the female lead looks like the china actress below....


zhang ting





kim ah joong

sometimes i talk to much?