promotions are meant to be joyous occasions.. especially your first ever promotion.. it should be special..

but me, as usual, didn't feel much.. maybe worse this time round..

how to cope? i can't even stay afloat.. sinking fast... who can save me?

tired.. tired to struggle against the currents..

trials and tribulations....

am i a horrible friend? lol. good qn.

改变心境，改进自己，感染他人，影响生命，造就环境。

理想、信念和责任体现在人们每时每刻的生活中。必须改变生活的观念、态度，生活本身才能有所变化。名誉要服务于大众，才有快乐；爱情要奉献于他人，才有意义；金钱要布施于穷人，才有价值，这种生活才是真正快乐的生活。

笔耕生活　柯灵
　　“文字生涯，冷暖甜酸，休咎得失，际遇万千。象牙塔，十字街，青云路，地狱门，相隔一层纸。我最向往这样的境界：只问耕耘，不问收获，清湛似水，不动 如山，什么疾风骤雨，嘻笑怒骂，桂冠荣衔，一律处之泰然，但这需要大智慧大学问，不是随便什么人能够企及的。”

did i do my part?

have i lost my objectiveness?

am i too opinionated?

who's rule do i live by? my own?

purpose?

drive?

motivation?

confusion?

lol.