watched epi 12..

his father sounds like my father.. the same angry tone.. the same ridiculous logic.. same hurt..


damn drama for the 'do u know she's a gal' part..


think the health care teacher always enter at the right time.. haha.. hard to compare underground gay love and the one of the male and female lead.. interesting theory about true love..


yes.. very sweet.. alittle sad lar.. but.. very teeny bit..

暧昧 - yang cheng ling
暧昧让人受尽委屈
找不到相爱的证据
何时该前进何时该放弃
连拥抱都没有勇气

只能陪你到这里
毕竟有些事不可以
超过了友情还不到爱情
远方就要下雨的风景
到底该不该哭泣
想太多是我还想你
我很不服气
也开始怀疑
眼前的人是不是同一个真实的你

暧昧让人受尽委屈
找不到相爱的证据
何时该前进何时该放弃
连拥抱都没有勇气

暧昧让人变得贪心
直到等待失去意义
无奈我和你写不出结局
放遗憾的美丽 停在这里

暧昧让人受尽委屈
找不到相爱的证据
何时该前进何时该放弃
连拥抱都没有勇气

暧昧让人变得贪心
直到等待失去意义
无奈我和你写不出结局
放遗憾的美丽
停在这里

although.. it is damn gross to see a grown man cry like a gal/baby...

but.. very pei fu..

how many are willing to take on the mistakes of those who are under their care/guidance as their own.. being an in-charge or the head is never that easy..

i am so going to die for bio psych test..

oh.. and.. i officiall declare that i am switching roles with nott..


now i'm body, she's brain..


yes! finally can unleash my dumbness!

yay!!!!

i got my laptop up again!!!! haha..


BUT...

no wireless modem.. i don't want to lug a cable around sch! some body help me!!!


oh.. and the screen's still cracked.. damn... need to repair soon.. i think..

wanted to ask if it is possible for me to find a place/something to do that can let me escape from the cold hard realities of this world..

but then.. i found my ans.. i do.. i read books.. stories.. for that moment that i'm reading.. i get to live my life in the books..

but i would still like to find a place where i can run away to..

sigh.. being restricted about wat time i can go out.. for wat.. with whom.. by my parents at such an age.. sian..

wat can i do? freedom of speech and action can never be achieved..

think i'm getting old.. new year's never the same as it used to be.. the time when i looked at it thru more youthful eyes..

well.. we can't go back to the time we were so carefree and easily satisfied right.. maybe magic is only for the kids..

enuf mopping about lost childhood.. evolution of cny is also very apparent and moving towards a certain trend with ppl getting older and more kids popping up..

as a kid.. it was all about getting the sweets and yummy goodies.. then.. it's the angbaos... when u get alittle older.. taking care of younger cousins.. also.. the gambling.. now.. having a good chat with cousins.. then it regresses back to more gambling.. disturbing younger cousins about their love life.. then when u get married.. get worried about giving the right no. of angbaos.. then when the kids come.. fretting over wat the kid's doing.. helping out with the preparation of lunch and dinner.. then comes chit chatting after dinner at the round table and later on.. tv..

will i be able to experience all of that? sometimes i wonder.. seems like the tradition is fading.. with my grandma's house being on sale.. these things may become a thing of the past.. it has already been getting tiring to upkeep traditions.. i've seen it in ppl's eyes.. the tiredness.. the boredom of routine of wat to do during new year...

i'll miss the gatherings.. maybe one day i'll revive it.. haha.. if i have the money and the time.. ok.. marry rich.. wahahaha..



meeting up with vi always feels good... time's never enuf.. haha.. well.. some things i didn't want to think too much about so.. dragged it to the last topic of the day.. a bit regret but.. yar.. haha.. tao2 bi4.. maybe next time..

my temper's getting worse.. argh..

don't like it.. must breathe and think more... reacting to things is not a good way to go..

well.. for me.. i love the martin luther king, jr's 'i have a dream' speech.. very inspiring..

jia you..

ganbatte..

u can do it..




body.. enuf?

nothing cures a massive headache better than a good night's sleep..

next time no more sitting in front of the air con at tcc.. brain freeze.. hor nott? hehe

i wonder wat i said got thru.. but at least i've some of the things that i've been wanting to say for very long out of my chest..

hope things will get better..

been thinking for the past week.. wat shall i do?

i have to decide soon.. or can i play by the ear.. i hope it will not destroy ppl too much..

tough choices..

perceptions.. my greatest fear and greatest wonder..

Kwee ting, the best match for your personality is Scorpio

Scorpio, the Scorpion (October 24 to November 22): This powerful and passionate partner is just your type. Initially, a Scorpio may catch your eye with their confidence and determination. But as you get to know them, you're even more likely to be drawn to the firmness of your Scorpio's convictions and the strength of their desires. People born under this sign often have magnetic personalities. They're also usually able to communicate with a great intensity of emotion. Be aware, because of Scorpios' strong, passionate natures, they sometimes have a tendency to become jealous or critical. However, a Scorpio's love can also be exceptional in its depth and potency. In the bedroom, you'll likely find the Scorpion to have a high libido that keeps them sexually charged. In general, Scorpios are people who feel deeply and react strongly to their emotional perception of the world around them.

http://web.tickle.com/tests/zodiac/?test=zodiacogt

wahahahhahahhahaha..
erm.. now everyone's gonna qn my orientation..

到带

我受够了等待你所谓的安排　说的未来到底多久才来
总是要来不及才知道我可爱　我想依赖而你却都不在
应该开心的地带　你给的全是空白　一个人假日发呆　找不到人陪我看海
我在幸福的门外　却一直都进不来　你累积给的伤害　我是真的很难释怀 终于看开爱回不来　而你总是太晚明白　最后才把话说开　哭着求我留下来
终于看开爱回不来　我们面前太多阻碍　你的手却放不开　宁愿没出息求我别离开
你总是要我乖慢慢计划将来　我的眼泪却一直掉下来
过去怎么交代你该给的信赖　被你亲手缓缓推入悬崖 从我脸上的苍白　看到记忆慢下来　过去甜蜜在倒带　只是感觉已经不在
而我对你的期待　被你一次次摔坏　已经碎成太多块　要怎么拼凑跟重来
终于看开爱回不来　而你总是太晚明白　最后才把话说开　哭着求我留下来
终于看开爱回不来　我们面前太多阻碍　你的手却放不开　宁愿没出息求我别离开

we
are
rubbish!

i love my new fridge!


the thot of spring cleaning was dreadful but.. had alot of fun.


i feel like sleeping my life away.. so tired..