avatar's quite good... it's even better when one did not pay for the movie.. the 3d however was not really necessary... not much 3d effect to warrant me wearing two pairs of glasses thru out the movie.. 3hrs was a little bit too long for my bladder's liking too... hahaha.. nevertheless, a gd show to catch..

窗外的天氣
就像是 你多變的表情
下雨了 雨陪我哭泣
看不清 我也不想看清

離開你 我安靜的抽離
不忍揭曉的劇情
我的淚流在心裡 學會放棄

聽雨的聲音 一滴滴清晰
你的呼吸像雨滴滲入我的愛裡
真希望雨能下不停
讓想念繼續 讓愛變透明
我愛上給我勇氣的 Rainie love

窗外的雨滴 一滴滴累積
屋內的濕氣像儲存愛你的記憶
真希望雨能下不停
雨愛的秘密 能一直延續
我相信我將會看到 彩虹的美麗

冷冷的空氣
很窒息 我無法呼吸
一萬顆 雨滴的距離
很徹底 讓愛消失無息

離開你 我安靜的抽離
不忍揭曉的劇情
我的淚流在心裡 學會放棄

聽雨的聲音 一滴滴清晰
你的呼吸像雨滴滲入我的愛裡
真希望雨能下不停
讓想念繼續 讓愛變透明
我愛上給我勇氣的 Rainie love

窗外的雨滴 一滴滴累積
屋內的濕氣像儲存愛你的記憶
真希望雨能下不停
雨愛的秘密 能一直延續
我相信我將會看到 彩虹的美麗

屋內的濕氣像儲存愛你的記憶
真希望雨能下不停
雨愛的秘密 能一直延續
我相信我將會看到 彩虹的美麗

lying is a habit. a habit formed from young. cos the truth hurts, in more ways than one. think canes, belts and wat nots. heh.

people always say that one's mother will know when one is lying. i have no idea if it is true, but i know that the person who knows best is yourself. you may even believe your own lies, but deep down you will know.

i believe that lies haunt ppl who say them, they are always ready to jump on you when you least expect it, always wondering when someone would find out. but then again, i've seen enuf ppl lie to start to think that only ppl who has a heart, a conscience, would be haunted by the lies they say.

but then again, who am i to say wat's in the mind of others?

for me, i am quite surprised i still lie, considering there is nothing much to lie about and the consequence of not lying is not as great as it seemed when i was young. but i guess lying just kicks in like an automatic reaction, a self defence mechanism that one activates when one perceive danger which is activated on a more primal level than the higher consciousness. hence i always find myself lying before i could catch myself from it and tell the truth. i guess it's sort of confusing. it's like seeing myself lying and only realising that i am after saying it and wondering to self why did i do that. but it seems inevitable, like you can't not move your hand away if you touch something really hot.

i really need to pause and think before i react, half the time i regret my actions, well, or my words.

i'm as stuffed as the turkey.... yum...

a click of my button and u are gone... bye...........

cousins.... wat can i say.... we are a bunch of really funny ppl...

it is very disconcerting to hear your father try to sound like a chipmunk............

is it me or does she look like someone we know?

ppl at work really make me laugh damn hard... lol...

ridiculous lame jokes and antics... hahahahhaha....

well... there are some ups and downs... but i always think it's who in wat shift that creates the ups and downs... a really good tutorial on how group dynamics affect ppl at work...

hahaha... 海派甜心 is so cute... it's turning out to be an adorable show... mmmm.... hope the next few episodes are as funny..

had a close call today...

almost overslept and didn't go for work... lol.... good thing i was dreaming abt brushing teeth and being late... so decided to check the time when i was half awake..

hmmm..... dao huay and coffee.... yum....

lady gaga.... hmmmmmmm.....

aww~~~ i love amanda.....

from ugly betty... LOL

sometimes i wonder why i still have meals with my family... i have grown to detest it...

i am back.. and broke... =(

bye~ ppl~.. don't miss me! lol




~~aussie land~~

busy busy busy busy....

the past wk was crazy as i was preparing for aussie trip and our 20% pre-christmas promo...

many things to handover to collegues and issues to settle and clear before i go on my trip....

many things to buy for the trip... been out twice to buy stuff... sun glasses... sun block... sandals... shoes..

many ppl to meet, things to do and events to go for.... dinner with the girls.. kitty exhibit... mph sale.. book bintan trip... change money...

i still have to finish packing my luggage, print my flight tix, check in....

groanz.....................................

i'm sick... i feel like a walking drug mixer.. first time get so many meds without antibiotics...

hate flu... *sniff sniff*

at least i might get some elusive sleep this time round...

tired.. tmr still got to work in the morning...

i have no idea why... hmm.. time to stop...

i did something very stupid today... i hope it won't come and bite me in the ass some day......

hmm... 3rd nov is coming... i have no idea wat to think of it...

i should be excited, worried, anxious etc etc..... but... me as me.... the feeling department's not working very well...

working for 3hrs at the taka chinese dept alone.... hmmm... chinese dept is as big as the whole bugis store lar... lol... well.. at least i don't have to handle payment and membership sign up.... i think the rest are feeling worried and anxious for me... haha.... maybe that's why i don't feel it...

hmm... i think feeling nothing is scary... at least i used to feel gan jiong or tense... scared i not up to it.... hmmm... i wonder wat it means to not be feeling them now..... prob a gd thing... prob nothing... prob my retardedness is growing...

feelings... when u have them, u either end up loving them or hating them.... when you don't... i don't know... must ppl feel about everything?

sometimes i feel i'm in the wrong place.. maybe i belong in some nunnery or some disciple of some zen master... lol... i would have been some highly skilled person there.. don't even have to learn to control feelings and emotions...

ooo~~~ came across this mtv/mini movie by jolin tsai... it's called 特务J... very cool and very touching.... interesting show to watch.... very good concept for promoting her songs...


another agent show... the recent korean movie, my girlfriend is a special agent... i think that's the eng title... nice... cute.. haha... i like.. and icing to the cake... the male lead screams like a girl... wahahhahaa...

drop aud drop..... drop drop drop......

oh... hahaha... sharon, u can change back ur aud first... i'll stop chanting for awhile... lol...

but i really think it will drop somewat even without my chant.... so it depends on whether u want to earn more or less.... lol....

pimples are growing on my face.... gasps.......

sigh.... better stay away from fried food and chilli for awhile... count soft drink in for the to-avoid list...

time for skin care? hmmm...

but that includes sleeping early and drinking lots of water.... hmmmmm.....

omg~~~~ got the reply for the bintan trip package! hahaha... i hope can get to book..

check out the droolsome deal...

One night accommodation at a privately owned Seafront Villa - 2bedroom waterside villa, with Master Bedroom with king sized bed, en suite bathroom with separate shower and outdoor sunken bath/Jacuzzi, 2nd Bedroom with 2 single beds, en suite bathroom, infinity pool, pool deck and gazebo with day bed and outdoor dining set, Balinese courtyard entrance, flat screen TV in all rooms, books, magazines, CDs/DVDs library, etc...

and that's not all... we get to have a 4 seater buggy to ourselves the whole 2 days and a private vehicle with chauffeur up to 4 hours. Also, complimentary massage for 1hr, dining vouchers and hampers!! haha... so shuang lar....

i wan i wan i wan!

"Man’s only progression, here or hereafter, must be founded on knowledge. Only by its means can he subjugate his external environment and enjoy its opportunities. He who is ignorant of the laws of his physical body incurs illness. He who is ignorant of the laws governing acquisition remains in poverty. He who is ignorant of the social laws of his land is likely to be deprived of his liberty."

bought a new weighing machine! can measure body fat and water... so cool lar.... but.. now i can't hide the fact that i'm fat fat... =(

ok.. they are back... finally..

i.am.traumatized!

all the blogs on my blog surfer vanished!!!!!!!!!!! AHHHH!!!!

the only blog left was sharon's....

wat am i to do?? groanz..

sigh...

a sense of restlessness...

it's so cold in the store that i am almost turning into a snowman... and christmas isn't even here yet..

had a good laugh watching ugly truth.... it's been a long time since i laughed so hard watching a movie....

i like playing with children under the age of schooling... so innocent and easily satisfied.... and they laugh so easily... and i always love making ppl laugh... they are like my best audience... hahahhaha..

i still couldn't believe we played chubby bunny... i want to faint from embarrassment....

i most likely did..... so wat now?

i feel uneasy today... restless... bordering upset... i have no idea why....

i have a toe problem...

i keep dropping things on to it.... hitting against corners of tables... jabbing it.. gah...


I am NOT accident prone! (now is a time i hope that self fulfilling prophecy truly works...)

i've always thot that ppl feel tired when they have alot of work to finish...

today i found out that one can get tired from having nothing to do and trying to find something to do....

gosh... it's a long weekend.... better make myself useful at work.... turning fat...

sometimes... the things you want, you don't get... it's given to you in a different form...



it's been a long time since we met.. i'm glad you called... needed it...

don't you think the weather always follows your mood?


it's been a rainy day

just watched slumdog... i have to say... the dancing part at the back cracked me up.... there is no gd indian show without dancing... hahahaha...

it's very hazy today... reminds me of the vietnam air... makes me want to stop breathing...


something on the side... i almost pulverised my big toe today.... dropped a heavy box right onto it.... =X imagine dropping a 5kg bowling ball onto your toe... ouch~~~... i hope it doesn't swell too much and turn black....

my heart hurts.... i wonder why....

literally lar ppl... don't think too much... ahahhaha....

camera... camera.... sigh... no more white one... left with blue... jiang jiu... jiang jiu bah...

wah... but really... comex quite cool this yr... from level 1 to 5 of suntec sia... and things are flying off the shelves like hot cakes... think it would have been more fun shopping with sharon at IT fairs... but she not here... i help her shop lor... but i lousy... never buy many gd stuff back... ahahaha...

anyway... got cute guy at acer booth.... he was explaining to me abt their promotion... very cute... he's on level 4... hehehehehe...

oh.. went carrefour today... almost forgot how big it was.... almost got lost trying to search for the non existent bengawan solo... bleah.... stupid voucher.. so outdated.... moved liao never cancel the info on the voucher... make me go round and round for nothing... but.. yar... carrefour changed alot since i've last been there.... sell even books wor~~~.... their display changed alot... it felt like a shopping mall all by itself... cool...

final destination is just....... gory....

something weird happened after the show.... we got into the lift to go down to lvl 1 frm lvl 5... pressed lvl 1 a few times... the door closed... but didn't move at all after some time.... so we pressed lvl 1 again... it moved down.... and stop at lvl 4a.... and the light for lvl 1 didn't light up again... i had to hold on to the lvl 1 button all the way until it reach lvl 1..... it's not funny when one just finished watching final destination.... all sort of weird scenarios come to mind... and not forgetting it's still the 7th month........

有你真好 - 范玮琪与杨丞琳 [“爱情白皮书”片尾主题曲]

这时候 最能让我想起你
多希望你在这里 oh~~~
你总是愿意 把你的手心 借给我握紧

该往哪里 我总是依赖着你
你是我的方向感 oh~~~
我可以确定 你会带着我 朝对的方向前进

I'm thinking of you 我有你真好
你能让烦恼变得渺小
我遇见一个最懂我的人
我会提醒自己 把这份爱收好

I'm thinking of you 我有你真好
只要牵着你的手就知道
我不是一个人在这世界停靠
因为我拥有你 在我心里
Thinking of you 有你真好
Thinking of you 呜～哦～

(因为有你 我看见世界的美丽 )

I'm thinking of you 我有你真好
只要牵着你的手就知道
我早已经没有任何缺少
因为我拥有你 在我心里
Thinking of you 有你真好
Thinking of you 有你真好

hmm... thinking... thinking....

happy happy~~~~ =D

i'm not a vain person.. but having pimples on my face is just.... argh... don't like... i seriously think it is cos my work place has too much dust in the air... >_<

the old pattern of interactions no longer match the new thots behind the faces... it feels like we are all trying to remain the same around one another... but yet at the same time end up revealing that we have changed.. there is certain awkwardness in the conversations and of course... the conversations mostly revolve around other ppl... other things...

i feel disconnected.. but yet i don't want to give in to 'need' to behave like once a upon a time so that we can all remain stuck in that period in time.... so i chose silence as my partner for most part of the time.... i don't think i can keep up with this any longer... i can't see any pt in it anymore... i'm not a person who lives in the past... i look forward to the future and enjoy the present... memories are nice... but they are meant to stay in the past... so that new memories can be created...

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i have often wondered... am i so unsatisfied with alot of interactions with people cos i have found the kind of interaction that feed my need the most... or is it cos the interactions of late are..... just... unsatisfactory...

i believe i am the most misunderstood person that i know.... well... other than body.... but since we are one....

sometimes i wonder is it really cos i don't want to grow up or i am not allowed to grow up... i have an overextended emerging adulthood...

i'm 24.... there are alot of things we all should let go off....

hmm... how to show someone that one is mature and independent... i thot it was apparent... but it end up being apparent-ly not...

all i need are chances.... i shall strive to create them....

i have been cultivating a very bad habit unknowingly for quite some time... it's very disturbing to realise it so late... time to shut the gape...

ARGHH!!!!!!!



if the font could be bigger it would have been bigger (stupid html code don't work one... increase font to 900 also so small.. bleah.. no kick..).. but anyway... not as pissed off with the world i was just now.... nothing hot soup and k-drama can't solve.... yum yum...

my mood hasn't been too gd lately... sigh....

AH~~~~~~~... OMG~~~~ damn nice lar~~~~~~... haahaha... sorry... HAD TO gush.... it deserves gushing...

just finished watching 'The man who can't get married' korean version on Viikii..... i would have to say.... it will prob top the chart for my favorite film list for many years to come....


sorry sharon.. didn't mean to post it... but... can't help myself... hehz... it's ok.. i watch with u again when u come back...

i think this is one of the few shows that i can watch over and over again lar...

再一次擁有 - 龔詩嘉

我想念去年的冬天
下着雪的那一夜
你给的温柔紧握的双手
温暖整个寒冬

失去了曾经的拥有
在你离开以后
带走了笑容只留下寂寞
忘了幸福是什么

没有你的夜特别的漆黑
只能闭上双眼去感觉
没有我的夜谁在你身边
代替了那个从前

失去了曾经的拥有
在你离开以后
带走了笑容只留下寂寞
忘了幸福是什么

没有你的夜特别的漆黑
只能闭上双眼去感觉
没有我的夜谁在你身边
代替了那个从前

能不能再听一次你说爱我
回到还在你怀里的时候

能不能让我再一次拥有
曾属于我的温柔

能不能让我再一次拥有
曾属于我的温柔

i guess i missed being pampered... well.. not that i've been pampered before.. but it feels good to not think... to not do anything... yet everything u want is being done for u.... ah... so nice to dream abt this kind of thing.. ahahhaha....

the key is everything YOU WANT.... i guess... is the hard part... i don't think many could guess wat's on the other person's mind... much less.... guess it and is willing to do it for that person... so... a dream.. but a nice dream nontheless...

sometimes it's nice to know that there is someone who will take care of u.... alot of times we take it for granted... but i learnt a lesson yesterday..

i highly doubt u will be reading this but... thanks alot... maybe u didn't think about it when u did it... but i felt safe and warm inside....

hmm... need to learn to be more appreciative of ppl's actions...


oh.. i really have to say... having a guy at work is very much appreciated and being treated like a female is not that bad at all.. ahahha... well.. at least i'm spared from lifting cartons for the day... ah~~... =)

i keep see ppl cough around me... feel like wearing a mask.... hahahha

watching shows sometimes trigger things that i want to forget... other times... allows me to think about some things and re-evaluate them.. from a different view... a different perspective... makes me understand what had happened better but yet nothing really changed outwardly... i'm still wondering if this kind of process is needed or i'm just wasting my time thinking abt things that can't be changed.. but i guess it brings me some kind of greater understanding of wat had transpired... allowing me to feel.... better?... i think... probably bring me closer to closure instead of keeping them in the dark little corners of my compartments........

spring cleaning... i guess....

Leave Out All The Rest - Linkin Park

I dreamed I was missing
You were so scared
But no one would listen
Cause no one else cared

After my dreaming
I woke with this fear
What am I leaving
When I'm done here

So if you're asking me
I want you to know

[Chorus]
When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed

And don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory

Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest
[End Chorus]

Don't be afraid
I've taken my beating
I've shared what I made

I'm strong on the surface
Not all the way through
I've never been perfect
But neither have you

So if you're asking me
I want you to know

[Chorus]
When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed

Don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory

Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest
[End Chorus]

Forgetting
All the hurt inside
You've learned to hide so well

Pretending
Someone else can come and save me from myself
I can't be who you are

[Chorus]
When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed

Don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory

Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest

Forgetting
All the hurt inside
You've learned to hide so well

Pretending
Someone else can come and save me from myself
I can't be who you are
I can't be who you are

i want a car.... more specifically... a suzuki swift auto car..... hahaha...

i doubt i would get it even if i add all my future bdaes together for it.... hahaha...

wants and needs.... i guess i can always do without a want....

my damn cute niece....

she singing shania twain's 'from this moment'..... i still have no idea how she can rem all those lyrics...

i'm tired..... i need rest....

there are things and ppl that are too energy draining for me....

i am so looking forward to nov/dec..... but definitely not pleased abt the hole it might cause in my pocket... but ah well... one must pay the price for some fun....

The Answer is...........................

the above is the caption for stefanie's concert... and the youtube is some snippets of the fantabulous concert....

i have to say.... her stage makes me drool..... and on many occasions.... i momentarily forgot that i was there to watch her perform and not stare in amazement at wat the stage can do and wonder watelse the stage can do.... mr gadget would love that stage...

at first when i reached there... i was wondering why there is a snail shell kind of design on the stage... i thot i kenna cheated... cos they say it's a DIAMOND stage.... and ppl should die if they cheat the ladies off their diamonds... but ugh feeling was gone once they started the concert.... the concentric circle like thing could actually open backwards and reveal her... damn cool.. so futuristic.....

and then the next wow come soon after that as the images start to flood the snail shell/diamond thingy... it turned into a high class projector screen that is damn big and has so many angles in the design that made things come alive/3d when shown on it... cool sia... one finally understood where the diamond came abt when the 3d visuals were played on it... chio.....

one of course thot there must be one more surprise with that stage... of course... we were not disappointed... she came out from behind the stage floating on a mini hot air ballon stage.... damn cool.... it also held her electric piano so she was in mid air playing tunes while she sign... very very pretty design... i think u all can see it in the youtube video...

when one thot that the stage is more than zai-ness can express... in comes 3d lazers that created such a real live version of her singing that me and my ma argued a good 2mins abt whether it's animation or she was just there, just that the light is shining differently... very very chio lar... only when that image suddenly disappear and the real stefanie appear then my ma conceded that it was 3d lazer stuff... hahahah...

also.. there are many parts of the stage that allowed her to make her entrances and exits... more than 4 i think... and the elevation thingy also alot.... but one did not expect the long ramp that is joined to the snail diamond shell to detach itself and make a 100 over degree sweep from left of the stage to the right side....

with all these gadgets already there... it was still a shock to see that her band was hidden behind 4 tiny globes near the main diamond shell... and it wasn't enuf.... the globes were hung in mid air and flip 180 degrees to reveal a back that had many light bulbs on it and they turned into part of the lighting for the show.... multi funtional sia... OMG.... i really kao tao to them.... make me drool whole night abt the wonderful stage.... a magnificant piece of art...

hmm... right... as u can see.... urs truly was totally mesmerised by the stage.... hahhaha.. ok lar... her singing improved tremendously... no out of tune liao... but sometimes either cannot hear or breatheless... her starting voice a bit metallic... don't sit well with me... but i guess she did that cos it was a futuristic concept.. song choice wise.... i quite like cos it's the songs she usually don't sing during concerts... and this time round the changing of the tunes of the songs was much better than the last time... at least this time they are still recognisable and singable... and the tune quite match the song actually.... so... nice....

i was quite impressed by the dancers when i could tear myself away from the diamond shell stage + animations.... i thot i was watching some modern dance performance or some theatrical performance.... very expressive... very coordinated... i like... and they so poor thing.... must be poppish.... modern and expressive... acrobatic..... and sometimes even pull a few cheerleading poses...... really quite pro....

i have to talk abt the costumes! the dancers ones were quite nice leh... there's one where they had to veil their whole face like fencing.... i wonder how they know where to go.... and stefanie's costumes were OMGish.... mostly dresses... short short ones... mainly cute ones.... some glam ones... never seen her in those things before lor.... an eye opener... i guess the way u dress changes the way you present yourself.... she was so cutesy... and hmm... should i use sexy? i guess her hot scale shot up quite a bit for most ppl.... no more tomboyish looks... almost like the cute girl next door with her flowy dress and her long pony tail.... i guess it's her way to show the world that she is quite girl one... and the dressing in dresses and skirts and long hair to her represents a certain kind of freedom... the kind she didn't have under the music companies.. i think no one's gonna complain abt her new wardrobe~~....

i guess that's all folks... it's been a long day for me and there is still work tmr... gah.... nites.....

OH YAR... we encored twice.... so cool... tata~~

why do i always end up doing things that i want to slap myself for? sigh...

it feels... strangely... unsatisfying...

hmmmmm... don't know...

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seems like i have less and less 2nd chances to dish out nowadays... not sure if i've lost my patience with ppl or too quick to make judgements and sticking to them... hmm...

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it's a bitch when ppl u have complained abt mins ago comes offer you help.. sometimes i feel a stab of guilt for passing such a quick judgement before the person can prove himself... other times... i feel that i have made the judgement based on observations of their behavior and them being nice to me is aside from it... sigh... this confuses me...

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i'm not sure if i'm getting wat i want from this but i'm enjoying myself quite a bit... and... money is currently not a need, so it hasn't really fall into my consideration... BUT then again.... one should plan further ahead... and money definitely will be a need in the future... the question is... can i afford to take a gamble that i can manoever such that i enjoy wat i'm enjoying now and still get the money i need when i need it in the future...

it will certainly take some skill and luck...

________

i've been getting quite a bit of these weird vivid dreams that seems to make sense but doesn't at the same time... i wonder wat they mean....

________

and abt the h1n1 business.... i'm not afraid to get it... i just don't want my mum to get it... so that means i need to be careful that i don't get it... gah....

for my mummy... i will be guai guai and don't anyhow run.... hmmm.... can't avoid work though... zzzz....

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one more thing... they are having a sequel for alvin and the chipmuncks!!!! sharon... u come back we watch... it shows in dec.... and it's called.... Alvin and the Chipmuncks 2: The Squeakuel... hahha.. so cute right... squeakuel...

it's quite interesting to hear ppl's description of you, especially when you can't see it for yourself.. it's also fascinating to see the ppl around you thru the eyes of others.. it adds alittle bit more perspective, and gives one alittle more rounded view of the person..

i can understand my cousin's curiosity on how we see the rest of our family..

cousins' outings are always fun... you get to understand them more from the way they talk about things they like and don't like, their wants and motivations.. that applies to other outings with friends that feel they could share their thots with each other..

no wonder i've lost interest in some of the mindless meet ups with ppl who can only chat about nothing of importance...

well... they are not really that bad.... sometimes it's fun to just catch up with friends and have some activities together... just that... i like nothing more than seeping a hot drink(ok, ok drinks applies too) and chatting with a few ppl about things that matter to us...

enuf musing... back to mopping to floor... i can't be outdone by my body in being the cinderella.. hahahahha...

if u have been wondering wat have i been up to.... for the past week, i've been coughing my lungs out... gah.......



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for those who took their time out to entertain me... love u very muchz... =)

for those who didn't, it's ok... i know u love me too.. hahahha

remind me not to hide money in anything that ppl can try away in... poor woman..... threw away a million bucks.... http://sg.news.yahoo.com/afp/20090610/tts-israel-cash-offbeat-c1b2fc3.html

se⋅cret: something that is kept hidden, or concealed.

secrets... most ppl have some of their own... some have lots of them... others... have dark, horrible ones... almost everyone keeps a personal secret or the very least someone else's secrets.. i, unfortunately, am not spared of secrets... i told body once i don't have secrets.... now... i'm not so sure... ppl keep giving me theirs...


i never could quite understand why ppl want to keep them.... to.. protect oneself? to prevent others from using the information against you? to exclude others? but then again... if one doesn't have a secret.... the secret can't be used against them.... they will not be afraid of the secret leaking out.... won't have to worry that friends might sell them out.... don't have to censor constantly.... don't have to constantly keep tabs on who knows wat...

having a secret i feel.... is a burden... in order to keep one... u must do a 101 thing to make sure it stays secret... then u worry abt the day it won't stay a secret.... i don't understand.... the investment of resources to keep one doesn't seem to give ppl any rewards.... the only known benefit i see with having secrets is that it promotes bonding amongst ppl who share a secret.. and maybe on a few occasion, prevents unscrupulous ppl from manipulating you lar...

i don't know... i'm never a secret person... but i guess i ended up being a secret's keeper..

i hate off days liao... stay at home and have to listen to the constant drilling of the lift construction ppl... gah....

the drilling stopped... but the headache's still here... groanz...

the constant drilling is giving me a headache....

S.H.E - 星光 Xing Guang [Starlight]
相约来到这世上 却在途中失散
走的路是否一样
看着同一片艳阳 我忽然有预感
久违的陌生人会遇上

也许是你笑的弧度和我很像
也许是因为守护的星座和我一样
也许是漫长的黑夜特别孤单
才会背靠着背一起等天亮

黑夜如果不黑暗 美梦又何必向往
破晓会是坚持的人最后获得的奖赏
黑夜如果太黑暗 我们就闭上眼看
希望若不熄灭就会亮成心中的星光

上帝布置的悲伤 和分配的阳光
你和我是否一样 拥抱同一种信仰
我忽然有预感 我们会是彼此的星探

也许是你笑的弧度和我很像
也许是因为守护的星座和我一样
也许是漫长的黑夜特别孤单
才会背靠着背一起等天亮

黑夜如果不黑暗 美梦又何必向往
破晓会是坚持的人最后获得的奖赏
黑夜如果太黑暗 我们就闭上眼看
希望若不熄灭就会亮成心中的星光

by far gossip girl has the best season finale.... house and bones... i don't know why but... it seems like they have a similar irritating cliff hanger that leaves ppl unsatisfied... hmm... to think of it... the story seems similar.... solve case, delusion/dream, unknown future of main character... but ah well... i'm still quite happy cos finally got a aww~~ ending for gossip girl... it really doesn't decrease ppl's desire to watch the next season if u don't put cliff hangers.... don't know why ppl keep doing that...

it's late.. no more time to think abt this kind of thing... nite~


** oh... i forgot to add that both the male leads had imaginery sex with the female lead...

i had a pleasant surprise today~

thot today was gg to be a normal work day since body was not feeling well and we can't go watch angels and demons... but i stayed back after work to clear some comic orders and end up meeting a friend who was looking for books... i haven't seen carol since tiann's bdae, which was 3yrs ago... =X ah~~ miss her... miss them... miss the sec 2 class... but seems like no one's planning the gatherings.... well cos... i was the one who usually plans them.. but haven't been thinking about it ever since uni... i guess cos also most of them went smu bah... didn't feel a need to meet up since they see each other quite often...

hmm.... see how lar.... so weird to have chalet when u r 24... hahha... then my house not big enuf also... tiann's house is lar... but not my house to offer... oh well... wait lar.. wait till i become rich and live on landed property... hahahhaha...

omg~~~ i love the taiwan version of 'don't forget the lyrics'! hahaha.. finally can sing ALL the songs that the contestants picked... and they are all singers... so, no icky voices... hahha... i think manda will love it too! haha.. got old old chinese songs... we can sing them during kbox next time.. wahhahaha

had a shitty work day.... it's one of those days that i feel like i suck at everything...

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side note... everyone seems to be carrying high tech phones.... maybe it's just kino customers but it made me feel that my phone's a dinosaur.... e-commerce should be an integral part of book selling if they don't want to be phased out..

apparently may is hell month... how wonderful.... hell follows me even when i have left sch... i wished someone had warned me how horrid this month could get.... but oh well.. i should have guessed/calculated.... and thanks to myself for ordering so many things... i am killing myself trying to finish pricing them before stock take... gah.... but then again... i was forced by circumstances to order that much... so all i can say is... bad luck bad luck...

*in case u are wondering... no... i haven't finish my mountain of cartons, just want to relax for the night... there is still a small hill to clear... groanz...

the gd thing abt this mth is it's peppered by many great outings with diff ppl... though which also equals to me on the road to brokeness again... sigh.. when can i start saving money? =(

friend's wedding was.... awww~~~~.... she look so pretty and happy... and her husband look shuai lar... why some ppl have all the luck... they even had a zoe tay wedding like thing during a segment of the dinner.... sword ceremony or something, can't rem wat they called it... they had the air force ppl line up on both sides of the red carpet and held their swords against each other, blocking the couple's path to the stage... they had to pass the challenges posed by the MCs to move forward... a little cheesy but it was quite cool seeing so many airforce guy in smart uniform with swords.... oh yes... cheesiness... everyone... pls remind me.. if i ever do get married and ask any of u guys to be the MCs for my wedding dinner... don't say cheesy lines.... i was cringing the whole night... haha... they were well intended but badly executed... oh yes... and pls.. if any of you get married... no rasa sentosa.... food is disappointing... the hotel rooms don't look 5 star... service is dismal... and ex... i not so rich to bao big ang baos every time....

grandma's bdae celebration was a wk after the wedding... we had a private room dinner thingy at a restaurant in chinatown to celebrate.... i had to talk abt the room... it looked like we walked into some hk drama like zhen qing or something.... the room had TVs and karaoke sytems and sofas... if they add mahjiong tables in it will total look like we are in hk... hahaha.... the food was great and ice wine too.... but the hygiene was eek... mini roaches were attacking my cousin's gf... poor girl... lost her appettite after that.... and the waiters look damn unfriendly... like want to kill ppl kind... anyway... despite all these.... we had a great time... i think cos of the karaoke.... never head my cousins/uncles/aunties/nieces/nephews sing before... its a.... ear opener... =X... i was very amused when my aunties started dancing to the songs.... one of my uncle was seen tugging pulling... almost forcing his wife to dance with him.... she was so embarrassed... wahahaha.. i think he drank to much... too high liao... anyway... i was 'forced' to sing... had two mic shoved in front of my face by my adorable nieces... they damn cute lar.... ok... need to stop gushing abt cute kids... but really damn cute.... oh yar... the high pt of the amusement was went my grandma suddenly started dancing with the uncle who tried so hard to get his wife to dance with him... hahaha... i think most of us had our jaws hanging when she did it... very seldom u see an 85 yr old person dance... it was a great night to remember... too bad some cousins couldn't make it too the party.. otherwise it would have been perfect...

cousin's outing followed the next wk cos i think we were too high from the party... had a yummy meal at waraku and desserts at asabu zabo (i can't rem the spelling)... it was filled with cam whoring as my younger cousin loves taking pics so much... and also many drama stories by her too... i think me and my uni cousin's life pales in comparison to hers... and she so much younger than us lor... sigh... wat have we done with our lives.... tsk tsk... anyway... TKL! you should go tell his parents about the hole... seriously.... as a 'concerned friend'.... hahah... ah... i suddenly miss ming... hopes he comes back soon... i think we need cousin's bitching/sharing session... well... there's also the ahem, drinking, ahem part too... wahhaha... stupid tkl... faster grow up.... waiting for u leh...

then there was daphy's pseudo party.... quite nice to relax and chat with old ppl.... my only complaint was too little time... see lar body... tsk tsk.. still want to go tampines first.. hahah... fainted... if we did, we really don't even need to say harlow harlow liao... and we found manda a cute guy! can sing, looks cute, plays the guitar... most imptly... he can sing and play to any mayday's song.. manda... u should go watch the t.w. drama -my queen- (it's on viikii... got ruan jing tian~).... hahha... the stay over was nice... just that poor me and my body had to sleep on a bench and share a pillow... should have brought my piggy... the day (or rather the next day), ended with chinx, tok, body and me gg KBOX!!! hahha... sigh, why do i always end up gg to kbox with ppl who sing so well? damn... we had a damn big room sia.... should have gotten more ppl lor... i think we need an old ppl's kbox session or something... i miss the old folks...

no wonder i have been so grumpy abt work the whole month.... had too much fun playing liao.... bleah...


wah.. so late liao... better sleep... tmr got driving... =(

be patient... the little miss here is too busy everyday to do anything else other than rest when she comes home...

i shall talk abt the wedding and my grandma's bdae after my mountain of cartons disappear..

anyway... to see wat i've been up to.... can go check my facebook... my cousins flooded it with bdae photos vidoes and cousins outing... damn tak glam..

ooo~~.. went with body and nabz to watch X-Men!! haha... so fun... too bad chinx never join us...

the show's damn nice lar... everyone should go and watch...

i wanted to blog abt my friends wedding but got too pissed to do it... now no mood... another day bah....

i think i really give up with communicating with some ppl... a simple qn can lead to a huge argument.. i totally don't understand... sometimes i wish i can walk away from everything.. i like being alone very much... maybe some day i should just do that...


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w.r.t. to nab's enquiry.... i'm working coming fri and sat, the next mon, tues and fri, from 1pm to 10plus..

my body and i braved the rainy, cold weather to go shopping for a dinner outfit for my friend's wedding on tues..

it was a frightful experience... hahaha.... the most disturbing shopping experience i have ever had... and it totally has nothing to do with wearing weird looking clothes or dresses or even revealing clothes.. hahahahha....

i was very disturbed by the way body went about looking for clothes that would match me... imagine her in research/preparing to write paper mode... and put that intense, focused, one tracked mind look on her face when she went searching for my clothes... no cheryl walk a few rounds, randomly walk, randomly pull out dresses kind of shopping... she was systematically combing thru every rack, looking intensely at every outfit, walking damn fast...

i was amused and disturbed at the same time... hahha... anyway.... conclusion of the shopping trip... i tried many tops and dresses... but i was ngiaoing about them being ex.... so... we went back to her house to have dinner... and suddenly it struck her that she had some dresses i could wear... faintz... after walking for 5hrs and to think that we started our day at her house.... yar... and to finally find the outfit in her wardorbe.... yar..... but i'm very pleased that i don't have to spend a single cent....... =)

and i hugz body.... it's not easy choosing clothes for someone who has no idea wat she wants to wear... i think if i had gone with anyone else, i would have driven them nuts before the end of the day... =D

hmm.. maybe i'll post a photo after the wedding... see my mood..

i'm exhausted... mentally... it's really quite stressful keeping up with the book sales... they fly off the shelves as if they were free... i have to keep ordering but i never seem to find enuf time to do it... gah... i need a better routine... damn...

frente - bizarre love triangle


i love this version best...

this girl's version's good sia...

Dual Phonic - Bizarre Love Triangle

hmm... this version is interesting...

i really REALLY don't like to shop on sat.... so many ppl... so squeezy.. makes shopping alittle more frustrating the usual.. maybe i', not in the buying mood..

anyway... seems like alot of shops are having sales.. bad economic situation i guess.. oh.. i was looking at the skin food products... was quite amused that they have the gold collection.... gold flakes wor.... very kua zhang leh... hmm... shall wait for my ma's sub card before i go buy more things...

i was wondering how to break from my shopping spree before i go bankrupt... falling down and ending up with a swollen knee that hurts every time i bend or straighten it, was not part of my plan... but... well... grimacing over a bad knee is better than grimacing over a bank account with no money..

still haven't buy clothes for the wedding dinner... gah...

abt letting go... a bk intro.. very interesting.. love the way the author writes...


-我們都忘了，「放下」也是一種選擇-

人生就像跑馬拉松，有人揹了十公斤的糧食還擔心半路會餓死，
有人卻帶著一瓶水就出發，沒有罣礙，跑得自在。
無知的人只知占有，不懂放手，
就像買了電腦，急於加裝各種軟體，
卻忘了要定期刪除垃圾信件，系統必然愈跑愈慢，最後當機。
智者卻了解生命一切俱足，執著才是一切煩惱的起因，
放下，反而是離苦止憂的關鍵。
然而，放下的能力不是與生俱來，是需要學習的。
如果我們能停止用頭腦自尋煩惱，
如果我們能夠真正體認到：人，才是幸福的尺度。
那麼，半調子的人生，也是幸福的。
「放下」是每個陷入執著困境的人，最好的出路，
只是我們都忘了，在放下的那一瞬間，
我們並沒有失去什麼，反而是一個新的開始。

　　人生是一場奮鬥的旅程，有順境也有逆境，有快樂也有悲傷。而每個人都有與生俱來的能力、無限發展的潛能，我們也經由不斷的學習來累積智慧，讓我們克服無數的困難。

　　但是，人的頭腦也是煩惱製造機，所有的不安、恐懼就像小狗脖子上的項圈，把我們牽著走，我們自己卻無從抵抗。我們也時常背著包袱趕路，把壓力、焦慮往身上扛，更把自己壓得喘不過氣；萬萬沒想到，原來，困住我們的其實是我們自己，給我們帶來麻煩和危害的，也是我們自身。

　　面對人生的困境，你可以有很多選擇，你曾考慮「放下」這個選項嗎？靜下心來想一想，你會發現，阻礙自己的其實是心理的障礙和思想的頑石，只要輕輕的把它們移開，煩惱就會消失無影無蹤。即便是險惡的危機，只要放下心中的牽絆與恐懼，用坦然的態度處理，最終都能圓滿的解決。

　　想法決定你的心態，心態決定你的生活，換一個角度思考，跳出固有的思維框架，人生的哲理會如浪花般在你的腦海湧現。本書的78則小寓言，雖然是看似簡單的道理，但是絕對能給你意義深長的啟發。當你放下沉重的包袱，拋開一切的執著，抬起頭大步向前走，你會感覺「幸福」隨時跟在你的左右。

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we have forgotten that letting go is also a choice.

life is like a marathon, some ppl carried a 10kg pack of food but still worry that they will die of hunger half way, some ppl only brought along a bottle of water with no worry and ran freely.. ppl who are naive only know how to possess but don't know how to let go, just like hurriedly adding alot of software to a computer but forgetting to delete useless programs and causing the system to slow down and crash eventually.. wise man understands that obsessing/holding on is the root of all troubles and letting go is the key to leaving worry and pain behind.. ppl are not born to know how to let go, it needs practice.. if we can stop our mind from troubling ourselves, if we can really understand that life is the true measurement of happiness, then even a life that is not filled with achievements or liven to the fullest is also a happy one.. letting go is the best way to free anyone who is stuck, just that we have all forgotten that when we let go, we do not lose anything, we can move off with a fresh start.

life has its ups and downs, happy and sad, and everyone is born with the ability and the potential to learn and accumulate wisdom to overcome countless obstacles. but, human mind is also a worry-producing machine, all the uneasiness and fear is like a dong chain, leading us, preventing us from fighting against it. we also often carry with us baggages along the way, carrying the weight of stress and anxiety on our shoulders and always stressing ourselves out; but ppl have never thot that in actual fact that we are the ones who trapped ourselves, who bring ourselves trouble and hurt. facing life's challenges, you have have alot of choices, have you ever considered the option of letting go? stop for a moment and think, you will realise that wat is blocking yourself is your own issues and stubborness of view pt, just lightly place them aside and all the troubles will disappear. even if it is a dangerous situation, by putting aside the concerns and fears and use a honest and open attitude to handle, the situation will resolve eventually. thot decides attitude, attitude decides life, changing a new way of thinking about things and jumping out of the structured way your thot process goes, allows you to see many possibilities. when you let go the heavy baggage and stubborness, you will feel that happiness is by your side.

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gah.. my translation sucks... eek..

AH!!!!!!!!! i really really miss one lesson... shit... now i'm one lesson short... damnit lar.... grrrr......


still have no idea why i missed it though.... !#$#@%R#$^%

omg... i think i missed a practical lesson for driving... but... impossible leh... i check almost everyday... don't have leh.... but how come got blank... gah...

oh yar.. forgot to blog about this crazy customer...

the other day... some customer demanded to see our store manager cos our security guard requested him not to bring in his drink and even suggested that he can leave it at the counter for the time being... the customer got so bitchy for no good reason and insisted on seeing our manager lar... faintz....

i was like.... 'wat the...... got no food and drinks sign wat, the guard just doing his job, don't have to no problem find problem wat...' in my head lar.. many customers stopped their shopping and stared... i guesd they were quite stunned by the absurdity of it all... haha... my poor senior had to handle the customer cos he's the highest rank that day... poor him... talking to unreasonable customers at such a late hr after a long long day is no fun..

anyway.. the customer left after demanding that our manager call him the next day at a certain time.... another customer who overheard the convo between my senior and the guy with the drinks, came to our cashier after the commotion was over and asked her... 'who is that assh*le'... hhahaha... we have such lovable customers..

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i need to improve on my sentence structure... got angmo don't understand my explanation... =S

my friend's wedding invite just came... nice design... don't quite like the envelope though.. cos it looks very much like the brown envelope just that the color is gold.. not easy to see gold at night... i thot it was brown envelope when i didn't on my lights..

which reminds me... i need to buy clothes to wear for the wedding.... die... body?? free?? want to shop for me? hahhaha...

OMG!! OMG!!! ' !!

to think that nott and i were just chatting about her last night...

hmm... just when i posted that i don't have connection, it came back...

quite nice to be without connection sometimes... i get to read more... finally clearing the pile of unread books...

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been watching legend of the condor heroes 2008... even though lin yi chen is too cute in the show... i still think this series is the closest adaptation from the book... a good watch... and it developed some characters better than the book.. very interesting to see the characters thru the eyes of the ppl who made this show... and i would have to say that guo liang is actually a very good actor.. haha.. i almost didn't recognise him in the show...

the problem with working one level below the cinema.... the list of movies to watch grows...

movies i want to watch... in chrono order for this yr...
The Tale Of Despereaux (abt a cartoon cute mouse)

Detroit Metal City (actor's the person who was L in death note) watched.

Mall Cop (the funny fat guy... Paul something) watched.

Confessions Of A Shopaholic (book by sohie kinsley)
17 Again (the high sch musical guy's the lead)
The Snipers (Richie Ren and Edison Chen)
Duplicity (julia robert's spy/cop/love story show)
The Proposal (Sandra Bullock's proposal to a man.. hahah)
X-men Origins: Wolverine (title explains itself.. i'm an x-men fan)
Angels And Demons (dan brown, dan brown...)
Harry Potter And The Half-blood Prince (watching with parents, i think...)