i should care less and live more..

i seem to have to ability to make everyone angry. how wonderful is that?

i can't fall asleep easily.. i wake up half way or 3/4 ways through the night.. and i don't quite seem to be able to fall back asleep.. wat's wrong?

just realised how atrocious my memory is.. i can't seem to remember much of last week.. no recollection of wat went on.. suddenly blank..

took quite some time before i could remember something.. and even then... it's like trying to remember wat i dreamt of the night before.. everything feels so dream like and hazy..

i haven't been drinking.. lol, don't worry.. but.. this lack of memory encoding or recall is quite worrisome.. sigh.. maybe i have reached my limit.. or it might just simply be due to low quality sleep that i have been having ever since so many issues crop up at work..

"People look at you and me to see what they are supposed to be. And, if we don't disappoint them, maybe, just maybe, they won't disappoint us." - Walt Disney

it's sad when ppl close to me think so little of me..

seems like my friends have a habit of flying my airplanes... sigh..

oh well...

no mood to shop either.. feel so lethargic.. tired..

no one appreciates directness and honesty nowadays...

maybe i have been wrong that they are the best policies to have when dealing with people.. no one seem to be able to take it..

people seek my thots, but no one wants to hear them when i say them out... sigh..

tired..

i fear we can never really know someone..

i am being reminded that fear can be overwritten by awe..

if u can manage to grit ur teeth thru the first few seconds and let the wave of fear pass u..

i've been looking thru some photos.. i look so tired in the recent ones that i have taken..

i need some good rest..

maybe i should consider disappearing once in awhile..

i don't need to get irritated by people who declares one thing and does another, as long as i'm not affected by it..

i need to keep telling myself that..

ppl are such contradictions.. don't understand.. sometimes i wonder if i should adopt the view that behavior is more truthful than the words ppl speak.. even though i always would want to believe wat ppl say, becos i believe and respect ppl... is that so... wrong?

why do ppl have to lie about non consequential stuff? this.. i don't get...

相信是一种选择，一个信与不信的决定。没有100%的绝对知道，你选择相信的东西是真的，或你选择不相信的东西是假的。

time for a change.

i think i have become an overstretched rubber band.. i can't seem to go back to where i was before..

how can i recover? can i stand the stretching anymore? when will i snap? will it be soon?