i remember the times when my mum would tell me that she turned down headhunters' offers of better job positions cos she was afraid that she wasn't capable and that she don't think she was up to those jobs.. citing that she is just a sec sch educated, that her spoken and written english is very lousy.. and i also remembered i told her that she should have taken them up for i think that she can handle them and that she has a very good attitude towards work and things like english can be trained.. and that she should have more confidence in herself and that since ppl see that she has potential for the job she should at least have tried it..

never would i have thot that one day i would face a similar scenario that my mum had and did the same thing that she did.. and i didn't know how little confidence i have in my capabilities until i was standing up there .. not knowing wat to say.. and all i could feel were my insecurities..

you've asked if i have any regrets.. yes, i have.. i regret not giving myself a chance.. i regret letting down the ppl who thot that i could do it.. i regret not having faith in myself.. and in the ppl who believed in me.. and i am very sorry.. sorry that i disappointed..

if there was anyway i could reverse time...
but i couldn't..

好后悔好伤心想重来行不行
再一次我就不会走向这样的结局
好后悔好伤心谁把我放回去
我愿意付出所有来换一个时光机