frustrated.. with wat is going on or the lack of it..

maybe i'm angry with everyone.. maybe i'm angry with myself.. but i don't and can't sit and watch something that we have so painstakingly built up to be destroyed by the inaction of others.. and i myself cannot sit back and do my own stuff when it's happening..

a part of me feels that it's my fault.. for not taking up the role when i had the chance.. that's why i'm doing all i can to try and make it work.. by worrying and doing things that are outside my scope..

another part just feels that i cannot leave things as they are when i see that it can be improved.. we never know until we try to do something to improve that situation.. i don't want to give up without a fight.. maybe.. just maybe.. another small act could make the situation better..

but i know that i am tired.. and this cannot go on.. it must end somehow and soon.. sense needs to be knocked into everyone.. and order needs to be restored..

been somewat resting and doing work.. haven't been sleeping well/enuf..


bidding is as sucky as ever..

not going to do counselling liao.. too much things next sem don't think i can cope with counselling's workload...


sigh.. some ppl have no manners and don't know wat is call respecting ppl.. disappointed that ppl can be so ugly.. from the inside..

i am reminded why i don't really like going grandma's house when my bro and geok are not going.. got bombarded with qns from my uncles to my aunties to my cousins.. no fun being twenty plus..


yet again my father proved that he is totally unreasonable..

detached: not involved or concerned; aloof.

a dictionary's definition..

the qn is.. am i?

i've often wondered about how much i can feel for people and for situations.. my emotional level never goes pass a certain level.. and that's not a high level..

i find my actions and the way i speak dramatized.. cos most of the time i do not feel as strongly as wat my actions and words conveyed..

everything seem not to concern me so much... sounds scary huh?

it's much better now.. trying to engage more.. feel more.. be more attuned to my emotions..


side note.. think my mum is jealous of my friends..

went out for a walk in the afternoon.. suddenly realised that for more than 3months i have not gone to jurong entertainment centre.. the ticketing box office changed from level 1 to 2.. new toilets.. new stores.. to think that it is less than 15mins walk from my house..

sometimes ppl rush by their lives too quickly.. the world is too fast paced for me..

finally.. i'm going to have a more than two days break from society's stuff.. welcome back sleep, tv, relatives, family, long-time-no-see friends, books, rest!!


sigh.. pocket's empty again.. don't like.. argh..

revising budget for a whole day, in sch while it poured for the whole day and night was no joke... didn't finish until it was two am in the morning.. freezing our butts off.. talking rubbish.. bitching..


been talking alot today.. don't know if i should have or wat effects it will have on ppl but i'm glad things are out in the open..


so much has happened this year.. think i can say it's eventful year bah..

funny thing how i blog less when it's hols than when i have sch..

been having meetings after meetings.. never really did have a good rest.. tired..

still sick.. been pushing meet ups again and again.. sigh.. feel lazy too.. and no money liao... i'm a poor kid..

my thots are so random! the sleep bug's getting to me..

why do i always have busy friends???? don't like.

today's sun..

have been coughing and voiceless for a week.. think i'm developing six pack muscles from all the couhing..

i've been going to sch almost everyday even though hols have started.. damn no life.. and i haven't packed my room and file my this sem's notes..

doesn't seem like a holiday to me..

went for abc concert.. wasn't much fun.. probably cos i was sick..

it's very sad to see ur mum waving and swirling lightsticks and blowing the whistle when all u could do is clap..


meeting was very long.. alot of work to do.. my pub ppl are going to kill me..

to do list for now.. so empty.. click on it to see wat i have..

things done today.. mopped floor.. clean up cd rack..

such an uneventful and normal day..

finally it's over.. still don't know how i fared over all though.. very unsure this sem.. but hey, hols are here.. i shall just relax till my results come..


it's very sad to lose ur voice at the start of your hols.. i am very suay.. haha probably thats the result of going tcc with a sexy voice and after the oreo mocha frappe and 'over' baked chicken and 6hrs of talking..


i love it when my mum's not mad at me.. hahaha


for those with no more papers to clear, come look for me, i'm very free!!

for those with papers to clear, good luck for your papers!! the end is near!!

oreo..

always feel good after eating them.. think i have alot of thots and feelings associated with it..

i vaguely remember that i used to call it the black army biscuit.. cos when i was young, my cousin will bring these black biscuits back from camp and give them to us..

love the bitter taste of the biscuit.. and plus the cream.. just right..

i'm an oreo addict..

lethargic..

argh.. damn sucky to have sore throat when u know that in two days time u'll be free from sch.. and drinking water doesn't seem to help.. been drinking bottles of them.. until i want to puke.. i have a feeling this is only the start.. starting to feel achy too.. think a fever might be coming.. sigh.. bad luck..

argh.. haven't read a single page today.. i suck..


oh ppl.. module pref start liao wor.. and it's ending on 11th dec.. if u are taking the counselling mod pls tell me which class.. i also taking..

my mods every sem seem to line themselves nicely for me.. gonna love next sem's exam dates.. have two to three days of break b/w each exam.. can studying comfortably..

next sem's mod:
bio psych
personality and individual difference
social cognition
counselling skills

really couldn't get anything done when i'm at home.. up till 2pm i had nothing done.. but once i step into sch.. i covered 1 1/2chaps of adol..

nvm.. i shall try again tmr.. don't believe my self discipline so low..