frustrated.. with wat is going on or the lack of it..

maybe i'm angry with everyone.. maybe i'm angry with myself.. but i don't and can't sit and watch something that we have so painstakingly built up to be destroyed by the inaction of others.. and i myself cannot sit back and do my own stuff when it's happening..

a part of me feels that it's my fault.. for not taking up the role when i had the chance.. that's why i'm doing all i can to try and make it work.. by worrying and doing things that are outside my scope..

another part just feels that i cannot leave things as they are when i see that it can be improved.. we never know until we try to do something to improve that situation.. i don't want to give up without a fight.. maybe.. just maybe.. another small act could make the situation better..

but i know that i am tired.. and this cannot go on.. it must end somehow and soon.. sense needs to be knocked into everyone.. and order needs to be restored..