think i'm getting old.. new year's never the same as it used to be.. the time when i looked at it thru more youthful eyes..

well.. we can't go back to the time we were so carefree and easily satisfied right.. maybe magic is only for the kids..

enuf mopping about lost childhood.. evolution of cny is also very apparent and moving towards a certain trend with ppl getting older and more kids popping up..

as a kid.. it was all about getting the sweets and yummy goodies.. then.. it's the angbaos... when u get alittle older.. taking care of younger cousins.. also.. the gambling.. now.. having a good chat with cousins.. then it regresses back to more gambling.. disturbing younger cousins about their love life.. then when u get married.. get worried about giving the right no. of angbaos.. then when the kids come.. fretting over wat the kid's doing.. helping out with the preparation of lunch and dinner.. then comes chit chatting after dinner at the round table and later on.. tv..

will i be able to experience all of that? sometimes i wonder.. seems like the tradition is fading.. with my grandma's house being on sale.. these things may become a thing of the past.. it has already been getting tiring to upkeep traditions.. i've seen it in ppl's eyes.. the tiredness.. the boredom of routine of wat to do during new year...

i'll miss the gatherings.. maybe one day i'll revive it.. haha.. if i have the money and the time.. ok.. marry rich.. wahahaha..



meeting up with vi always feels good... time's never enuf.. haha.. well.. some things i didn't want to think too much about so.. dragged it to the last topic of the day.. a bit regret but.. yar.. haha.. tao2 bi4.. maybe next time..