papers are here.. test is coming.. but.. i am still not feeling it..

usually during these periods... i'll just feel very caged.. rebellious.. 'why must i be tested by a system that sucks? i love learning and nothing else'..

but.. this sem.. it's emptiness that i am feeling.. maybe it's numbness.. i'm not too good with labeling emotions..

nothing to do with education.. nothing to do with procrastination.. it's just something that has been bugging me.. something that i can't chuck.. that i can't ignore..

but.. i have this strong urge to chuck it.. to the furthest corner of the universe..

i fear i do not have the strength to take action.. nor do i have the strength to stay impassive..


values and principles.. wat are mine? they are being challenged.. i know wat i do or dont do will change them..

i guess now i know why ppl push thinking aside and stick to doing.. life is simpler that way..