haha.. yx.... soon soon.. i need to finish training first.. alot of tests to study for... will blog after they are over..

i was chatting with our dear bimbo queen about some common friend declaring himself as gay on april fools day.. and she commented this..

she said:
hahaha and i think the biggest one (joke) would be to tell me ur attached
(ok dun kill me)



i that bad meh?

haha.. but to think of it.. it would really be quite the april fools joke if i manage to pull it off..

hmm... idea sia.. ahahahhahaha..

damn.. i broke the friendship magnet that we bought at the bazaar..

is it a bad omen?

it's been almost six months... and i think i still wish that it was a stupid joke gone wrong..

april fools have come and passed... yet... no one came up to me and say 'april fools.. u've been had..'

i suppose i have to do something about it... i hate loose ends... and i still rem how i felt about not tying up the last one.. still haunts me till today.. and it has been wat? five? almost six yrs?

i don't want to have to go about avoiding a person again cos i can't bring myself to tie up a loose end... if i don't break this bad habit of running away when i don't want to deal with things, i fear i'll be a fugitive my whole life.. running away from things i don't dare to deal with..

i need courage.. but i'm not sure there is any to begin with to summon it..



gosh... i'm so useless..

something from a book that i've just read:

Life can be so good if you let it. But you must trade with life. You give something and you get something, then u give something of yourself again and you receive something again.

Life goes bad when people try to take from it without giving. Then they come away empty-handed, and they grab harder and more often, growing more disappointed and disillusioned each time.

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how often have we taken and not give a thot about giving?

many times did we just think about wat we want from a person/organization/institution without sparing a thot as to wat can we give?

life don't just change cos u want something or complain about it... life changes when u do something about it.. see to the change...