i don't know how long i can keep up the pretence.. i really need my sleep..

need to start getting a perm job..

resume.... argh.... hated thing...but.... need to do.. argh...

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seem to be running away from reality recently.. not good.. many things need to be done..

need to stop numbing myself with mindless activities...

though i would say bridge is not mindless at all.. but yar.. need to stop doing these non productive things..