hmm... 3rd nov is coming... i have no idea wat to think of it...

i should be excited, worried, anxious etc etc..... but... me as me.... the feeling department's not working very well...

working for 3hrs at the taka chinese dept alone.... hmmm... chinese dept is as big as the whole bugis store lar... lol... well.. at least i don't have to handle payment and membership sign up.... i think the rest are feeling worried and anxious for me... haha.... maybe that's why i don't feel it...

hmm... i think feeling nothing is scary... at least i used to feel gan jiong or tense... scared i not up to it.... hmmm... i wonder wat it means to not be feeling them now..... prob a gd thing... prob nothing... prob my retardedness is growing...

feelings... when u have them, u either end up loving them or hating them.... when you don't... i don't know... must ppl feel about everything?

sometimes i feel i'm in the wrong place.. maybe i belong in some nunnery or some disciple of some zen master... lol... i would have been some highly skilled person there.. don't even have to learn to control feelings and emotions...