sigh... i did something that i shouldn't have today... damn...

yeah~~ my LP is back from tw!! got ppl to kajiao.. got ppl to listen and laugh at my stupid jokes.. chases away the boredom that i've been feeling recently...

maybe i'm cold blooded..

maybe i don't feel at all..

maybe nothing is important enuf..

not friends, not relatives, not family, not even living or dying..

sometimes i wonder do ppl live to die... why ppl hold on to so many things... things that cannot be changed... things that they don't dare to change... things that have already changed..

i think i'm one person who shouldn't be invited to a funeral... ppl will be sorely disappointed..

i think ppl sometimes need to stop watever they are doing and rest instead of dragging their battered body around, doing things that they feel that they have to do..

everyone needs rest... rest for the body to recuperate.... rest for the wounds to heal.. rest for the scars to fade...

and i think i need some rest now...

i have come to realise that there are still some things from the past that are still bothering me despite my efforts of throwing them away.. the instantaneous tiredness i feel when faced with similar situations reminds me that all is not right with me... some bitterness has overspilt and is now hidden somewhere inside me, waiting for a chance to grow... and also.. i think i've hardened so much the past 5years that it surprised me... i knew i'm detached... but hard and cynical, i was not...

i hope bintan will provide a good enuf respite...

my house is infested with ants... gross.. i've probably killed enuf to go to hell... lol

if u have a secret and want to keep it... don't let the whole world know that u have it...

being lied to and manipulated leaves a bad taste in one's mouth...