i think ppl sometimes need to stop watever they are doing and rest instead of dragging their battered body around, doing things that they feel that they have to do..

everyone needs rest... rest for the body to recuperate.... rest for the wounds to heal.. rest for the scars to fade...

and i think i need some rest now...

i have come to realise that there are still some things from the past that are still bothering me despite my efforts of throwing them away.. the instantaneous tiredness i feel when faced with similar situations reminds me that all is not right with me... some bitterness has overspilt and is now hidden somewhere inside me, waiting for a chance to grow... and also.. i think i've hardened so much the past 5years that it surprised me... i knew i'm detached... but hard and cynical, i was not...

i hope bintan will provide a good enuf respite...