are we limited by our thots or is there a real limitation as to wat we can do and achieve?

i always have this qn at the back of my mind... occasionally i take it out to just play with it... most of the time, i believe that nothing is impossible as long as you set your mind to do it.. at times... especially during the times when i feel like a unfit salmon swimming upstream, i start to wonder..

these few months have been trying.. i have never been a very confident person my whole life.. i have had been picking up the shreds of my self esteem thru out the years.. trying to piece them back together after encounters with my parents and my overcritical self.. most of the time i'm quite successful at it... just on some occasions, self doubt creeps in.. and these few months have been one of those days..

will i ever be as good as how you had envisioned me to be? will i ever be comfortable and happy with who i am?

i hope so..

i really don't want to break.. and i really don't want to fall..

but is fear my only motivation?