today i have finally validated something.

while staring out of the well, i've always thot that there is a bigger sky out there.. and all these while, people have been telling me that that's it, wat i see is wat i get and that i am so fortunate to be given even the view of the sky.

it's good to know that i'm right.. but sad in some ways that y the rest can't see wat i can see. the extent of the smallness of my pond also stunned me cos how big can i grow in such a pond?

also, there's another thing that people can't get.. i get it that learning is a personal responsibility but it is also the responsiblity of the mentor to ensure that hard knowledge is transferred as best as possible. how does my feedback of lack of learning translate into my lack of proactiveness to seek understanding of wat i should do?

there are alot of tough choices to make this year. some to try harder, some to let go.. i want to believe that i have the maturity to make the best possible decisions.

and you.. in to the compartment u go. and you.. u have been in there for so long.. can we shake off the dust and start over again? i do miss having someone like you to talk to.. especially when there are so many things to think about and evaluate. but most of all, i miss the carefree fun of sharing thots and the silly laughter that comes after that.