the past two months had been challenging.. my weaknesses/flaws are starting to show.. maybe i should say.. my points of improvements have presented themselves.

my focus seems to be shifting towards how i feel about the mistakes that i make at work and how ill-suited my weaknesses are for such a role.. i feel that i have not risen to meet the challenge and have found myself drowning in the crashing tides. drowning and unsure of how to ask for help and what to ask for help for..

maybe i'm just tired from driving myself too hard.. maybe i've been attaching to much meaning to all of these.. is my expectations of myself realistic? am i suited for what i am doing? am i on the right path? y am i doing all this? what is it for?

i hope that i get out of this funk soon..