haven't really reviewed the past yr... it seem to have passed by so quickly..

someone asked me how had my hols been.. and i replied... 'wat hols?' then as we talked.. it suddenly struck me that ever since the start of last year, i haven't really been giving myself a long break.. yr2 sem2 flew past rather quicky, then came the 3 months hols which most of the time was spent on preparing for camp and setting up society.. soon came the start of yr3 sem1 and the joining of the new comm... then to this hols which was filled with rushing of proposals, tonnes of meetings and work.. and now the hols is ending..

been doing and doing.. think i keep falling into the same pattern of not stopping and taking a step back to reflect and to think about what has been going on.. think it's always so convenient to push thots aside and just do cos there's alot of work in front of me..

shall attempt to so some thinking..

i've grown alot this past yr and experienced alot.. 2006 definitely wasn't a peaceful, smooth sailing yr..

studies... nothing much... still not up to my standard.. lost my drive after i left my sec sch... hadn't been the same since then.. the grades are improving but don't think i'm ever going to hit a merit.. trying to find back my love for acquiring knowledge.. look pass lousy lecturers, boring tutorials and sucky exams.. want to see As before i graduate..

talking about graduating.. a bunch of u will be grduating in a few months time.. time flies huh? will miss u all when u all graduate from sch.. miss the lunches at the table.. miss the bitching during breaks.. miss the chaotic planning of timetables together.. 2006 had been a year where alot of great friends have been made.. many bimbotic and fun moments.. alot of eating.. tcc.. cartel.. starbucks.. stayovers... long heart to heart talks... standing by each other midst the disasters that befell on us.. it's also a year where i unmade some.. due to my ignorance and miscommunication.. a pity.. still've got alot to learn i guess.. been neglecting quite a few friends and missing quite a few gatherings... no longer as on as last time.. guess i'm tired..

everything's somewat the same for family.. but gotten closer to my cousins.. and i grew tired of the constant agruing that goes on at home.. being busy in sch helped solved a part of it.. too tired and numbed to keep fighting.. sometimes i still wonder why there is so much animosity but i give up on finding an ans...

being 21 hasn't been very much diff as i would expect... the figurativeness of freedom when u reach 21.. everything seems to remain the same.. just that i'm a bit richer due to the bigger angbaos that i get for birthday.. and that i don't control myself that much on the no. of times that i go out or how late i reach home... well... but my parents still do most of the time.. just that i don't worry about them controling anymore.. just hope that they will get used to having a daughter that has grown up and learn to let go..

LTC and camp and comms have been an eye opening experience.. if i were to choose again.. i would still join.. and i would still have done the things i did... letting go of the mistakes i've made and opportunities i've missed.. i don't want to have regrets..

a new year is here and i hope that things will improve and that it will be another memorable year..




by the way... body ah.. hols ending.. u finish writing my book?? or u forgot where u've placed them?