it's very interesting to see from an outsider's view pt of ppl doing the things that i have done before.. it gives me more perspective of what i have gained from those experiences and the things that i have taken for granted of..

i've come to realise that every step or action taken in the process of planning, preparation and execution of an event is very impt.. even the smallest and seemingly most insignificant ones.. a step that was overlooked or deemed unimpt can cause the whole plan to go off course.. there needs to be coherence in everything that is to be done and awareness that effects ripple.. preempting and playing out the diff possible ripple effects of an action is very impt.. learning not to freak out when things look doomed is uttermost impt.. haha

damn.. i'm going to turn into a cheryl nott.. not that she's not good.. she is very zai.. but scary~..

and i can now see how much i have grown from then.. in skills, knowledge and ability.. i've changed quite alot too.. some good some bad.. hmm.. must learn to be less overbearing and listen to others more when they talk.. to be a supporting role and learn from each and every one.. abilities which i seem to have lost over this past year..

oh yes.. no idea when i've picked up the bad habit of not being able to let go.. i need to know that as long as i've done my best to inform and beg ppl to use my helpline service, i have done my part.. and be able to accept that things will not be as wat i hoped and that i cannot control the situation as i like.. for i'm no longer part of that situation.. letting go and letting things flow.. thing may not be as bad as it seems..

'being able to accept watever outcome with a peaceful mind' is wat i have to learn to attain..