sigh... still half hearted in doing my last minute studying for the exams.. don't know why but everytime when it comes to this period, i seem to stop, stop moving forward...

inertia, procrastination.. watever it is called... i just don't get it..

and i feel sick about myself.. grossed out that i hadn't been doing any reading for the whole sem and now, here i am trying to make it pass the exams and hoping that i won't screw it up too badly.

this is wrong. i know it. but still, sem after sem i am making the same mistake.

i don't like it. and i want it to stop.. but i don't seem to be like doing anything about it.

there are alot of thing that i need to think through.. otherwise, i'll be doing the same thing again next sem..

i want to find some place that i can be alone with myself to think. about wat i am doing now, wat do i want, how i want to go on with my life. need to commit myself to something and folow through with it. not just thinking about it when i feel stressed and lost..

where will that be?