jap paper's over... very glad.. confirm no more jap for me.. can't take it.. shiong ah..


realised that when i have alot of time to study for exams, i tend to read too much.. everything needed and not needed i also go and read.. not like when i don't have time.. just grab wat i think i need.. and the best part was.. think i don't miss out too much when i just grab, i still can ans the qns.. guess i'm more effective when i'm short of time.. think i have more time to feel insecure when i have too much time.. that's why keep reading and reading even though i think i don't need the materials that i'm reading.. so i guess it'll do me good if i just play my next sem's study break away and then start studying a day or two before huh? hahaha.. think i'll stress everyone out if i keep playing..

ah well.. exam's gonna be over soon.. another sem passed.. so fast.. another year and i'll be out of sch..

2 papers down and 2 more to go.. wah.. this is fast..

oh.. wrote damn passionately about how freud contributed to counselling views and insights.. haha.. machiam pro-freudian.. too bad i can't get back my exams scripts to show all of u..

a litttle worried about my grades cos didn't really know how well i did for the exams and all my bloody papers are still not marked yet.. that's why i say sim is the best.. totally student friendly..


sidenote.. really need to stop finding entertainment in suaning my body.. the poor gal had to kenna suan-ed by me the whole day.. like i am getting a whole week's worth of entertainment cos that how long i didn't see her.. definitely don't want to be army rations..

the woman didn't tell me wat time to wake her up tmr.. i know i'm her brain but this is too far fetched.. and i don't think she'll want to tell me tmr wat time she want to wake up tmr right? sigh.. why is it like i owe her alot in my past life? hai.. ren ming bah..

i know exams started last sat.. but mine starts tmr.. so.. good luck for exams ppl!! haha.. so egocentric..

yupyup.. two papers tmr.. been reading and reading counselling stuff.. don't know if it will work.. think i really turning into a mugger..

and yes, we shall go tcc on the 4th dec!! oops.. do u think we should wait for my body and her darling?

haha.. this is one of the days that i'll say that i am a genius.. i revived my laptop!! don't know why i so lucky but yar... it's up and running.. maybe my laptop wanted me to concentrate on my studies so it purposely didn't work for 5 days..

but i'm happy.. hahha.. cheap thrilling..

i feel so handicapped without a com! argh!!

ah well.. another thing good about having friends to study in sch with u... can borrow com to blog..


yesterday ended with best friend and i going home before the sun set..


my dad reminded me why i like not going home..


anyway.. didn't realise i was so tired.. i set the washing machine and went to read my notes thinking that i'll hang the clothes when it's done.. however.. after finishing one page, found myself alittle tired and wanted to rest for a while and continue later on.. but once by head hit the bed, i was gone till next morning.. it was 9pm lar.. and i woke up at 10am.. haha.. wat a pig..


today is another day in sch.. suppose to mug.. think me and shar talk too much.. hahaha

yesterday was so unproductive.. only managed two pg.. spent the morning walking from biz canteeen to engine canteen to buy breakfast.. then slept all the way to evening to wake up to go bathe at kent ridge view.. finally got hot water.. i was so contented..

then went for dinner at munchies.. had alot of fun chitchatting and hearing stories..

then back to the store we went.. still chatting.. realised that ppl around me have very 'not normal' life.. like something that you would see when u switch on the tv.. and it can even said that they might win best sitcom if their life was filmed and shown... brings me back again to the pt that my life is too normal.. but then again.. like wat best friend says.. do i really want my life to be not normal? to be more eventful? ppl tend to crave simplicity.. and yar.. sometimes when things starts coming, they never stop..

oh.. something else.. even shar sees that i slip into the i don't feel like talking mood more and more often now.. don't know wat's wrong with me lar.. maybe it's just a passing phase..

think we all chat too much.. non of us studied alot.. and shar went home last night with only a half watched webcast which she fell asleep watching.. and best friend... kept dozing of in the middle of the night reading the cmn coursepack..

but yar.. best friend suddenly become very awake when we went to law in the early hours of the morning to make ourselves professor.. hahhah.. so fun to be sneaking around in sch..


damn.. the key pad of mac is so nice to type on... i want mac black!!!!

i wish money will fall from the sky and into my room.. only.. wat are the chances of satisfying both conditions? probability of zero..

ate cup noodles and watched 'over the hedge' instead of horror movies.. haha.. shar say she still want to go toilet after watching movie, so no horror film..

then everyone slept and i tried to read some.. end up falling asleep on the table.. not a nice position to sleep.. my neck didn't feel right when i woke up.. they are stil sleeping... haha.. win my afternoon sleep..

poor body still have to rush paper.. tsk tsk.. this sem never hand in a single one on time hor.. enuf of the nagging.. jiayou bah..

seems like tonight i'll be staying over alone.. shar and best friend going home... calling everyone! haha.. anyone want to join me and stayover in sch? make shift bed for sleep and tables for mugging available.. location close to biz canteen.. has aircon.. and has enuf 'privacy'.. so wat are u waiting for? join me!!

haha.. think i'm going mad..

showering in the morning at src was no fun.. there wasn't any hot water to begin with and the huge fan at the top kept blowing so hard at me.. freezing.. think i came out of the shower in record time..

haha.. been a pig the whole afternoon.. slept right after breakfast and woke up just in time for dinner.. shall start mugging liao..

this the store is a cosy place to be in.. now we have 3 tables and 2 makeshift beds.. didn't know we could squeeze so much things inside..

we'll be watching exorcist later for break from mugging!! yippie! haha.. think i'll be conditioned to like mugging from now on..

not very productive today.. but it was alot of fun.. got to rest and recharge a bit..

my laptop spoilt on me!!! after i restarted it, it black screened on me.. won't start up.. argh!!! damn sad..

waking up at seven plus to queue up at the front door of the library and mad rushing to get a discussion room was an unique experience..

ppl were all chionging up the stairs when the door finally opened.. made me wonder how i got the discussion room when took my time to take the lift up..

anyway.. day two of mugging begins..

the floor of the store is bloody cold.. freezing my butt cold.. had to wear a sweater and put towel into the sleeping bag to keep myself warm..

the temperature outside super cold.. good thing we are in the store..

things never go as planned.. even for muggers club's first event..

minrui gone missing.. suspected that she got stolen by SOMEBODY.. well.. quite expected bah..

sharon's down with fever.. resting at home for today.. will be back for mugging tmr.. i hope..

and we didn't get the discussion room.. damn... ppl are so kiasu.. tmr must line up at the front door before 8am..

anyway.. first time staying over in sch to mug wor.. shows how much i've changed.. can't even imagine me doing such a thing in sec or jc.. the slacker has been reformed..

more coming up on mugging in sch's episode..

the wheel is set.. the mugger's club's first event.. camping over in sch whole of next week..

almost trip when i walk up the stairs.. second time liao.. almost had the lift door closing on me.. almost poke my eye.. i'm turning hazardous.. been getting tired easily of late.. maybe that's the reason..


feel alittle weird at casey's party.. won't have if jia didn't keep pointing out that a certain someone kept looking my way.. think she too sensitive.. but yar.. 5 yrs liao.. so don't think his actions are anything more than just a habit kind of thing.. did a bit of looking myself.. he didn't change much.. still cracking his lame jokes.. ah well.. the past..


finally the body is of the same age as the brain.. congrats! hope u had a great b'dae celebration..

Money Money Money
-abba-

I work all night, I work all day, to pay the bills I have to pay
Aint it sad
And still there never seems to be a single penny left for me
Thats too bad
In my dreams I have a plan
If I got me a wealthy man
I wouldnt have to work at all, Id fool around and have a ball...

Money, money, money
Must be funny
In the rich mans world
Money, money, money
Always sunny
In the rich mans world
Aha-ahaaa
All the things I could do
If I had a little money
Its a rich mans world

A man like that is hard to find but I cant get him off my mind
Aint it sad
And if he happens to be free I bet he wouldnt fancy me
Thats too bad
So I must leave, Ill have to go
To las vegas or monaco
And win a fortune in a game, my life will never be the same...

Money, money, money
Must be funny
In the rich mans world
Money, money, money
Always sunny
In the rich mans world
Aha-ahaaa
All the things I could do
If I had a little money
Its a rich mans world

Money, money, money
Must be funny
In the rich mans world
Money, money, money
Always sunny
In the rich mans world
Aha-ahaaa
All the things I could do
If I had a little money
Its a rich mans world



haha.. my kind of song..

been staying in school till late to study for the past week.. and there are plans of staying over next week.. we are mad..

see how..



oral test die again.. sigh..

verbalising my thots make them clearer..

another day of ppl ignoring me.. how much more of it can i take?

and frankly speaking.. it's getting on my nerves!!!!!! argh!!!!!!!


i think i finally gave up on waiting for ppl.. they can appear or don't appear as they want to and i am not going to bother anymore..

my wisdom tooth is killing me.. and my father is peering over to look at my screen.. how discreet..

need to work out some things that i'm feeling.. confusing.. not sure why..

maybe i'm just too used to talking to u often.. that i being to feel weird when we don't talk.. when i don't see u.. when i don't a response.. when u don't tell me things.. maybe i expect too much.. don't think i am a very possessive friend.. but don't know why it looks like it now..

i don't expect to be your best friend.. cos i believe that there is no real 'best friend', best friends are a myth.. r/s between friends are all different and is hard to compare one to another.. so.. i'm confused..

i need to learn not to expect.. to take things as they are.. and be happy about any progess..

i've always believed that things that ppl encountered in their life shape how they response to the things they meet later on in life.. fascinated by how a seemingly simple action, thot or non action can bring about a huge change in ppl's life.. that's why i studied psychology.. i want to know how the mind works..

i love talking to ppl too.. cos i get to see a different world through wat they say and how they think.. haven't met two ppl who are the same.. behind every face, there is a person inside who had experienced many different things.. with thoughts that u'd never imagine them having.. doing things that u never thot someone could do.. things that u couldn't believe things that could have happened to anyone happened to them.. that's wat makes life interesting for me.. to find out the story that each person has.. and it seems too.. the story is never ending..

i used to want to seek the true self in ppl.. but too idealistic in this world.. now.. i just look at the different facets that a person has and make it a collection of some kind.. is there any occupation such as a life story collector?

anyway.. i'll be in sch studying tmr.. so find me for lunch or dinner if u are there..

not that i don't want to tell u wat's wrong.. just that.. i don't even know wat's wrong with me.. haven't been feeling too happy today.. but fon't know why.. and don't know how to label wat i'm feeling..

once again.. it shows how undefined and unclear my world is..

been criticizing, complaining and judging alot lately..

thot that part of me has already been toned down some wat but.. apparently.. it came back again.. and the environment and situation that i am in sort of fueled it somemore..

still want to change that.. be more caring.. more encouraging.. seeing the good part in things that ppl do and not jump into the all so familiar judging and criticizing.. but it seems like i am not on the road that would bring me there.. and i dislike it.. dislike the way i automatically judge and criticize..

and complaining was all that i have been able to do.. nothing constructive to help the situation.. don't know how come i become like this.. all this are making me feel worn out cos.. these things are not wat u will classify as positive actions.. tired..


i want to run away.. detach myself from this messy place and live in my own happy world..

first time in a long time.. i'm truely broke.. cashflow problem.. not that it is like stuck somewhere that earns me interest.. probably one of the reason that irks me..

there i things that i expect will drag.. but the there are also dragging in places where i did not anticipate.. so.. yar.. the lady here is hoping that money will drop from the sky..

another lesson learnt about handling money.. must plan further and anticipate the unexpected.. and keep track and regulate the money i have..

the thing about stress

it's been a long time since i heard someone say i don't look stress.. well.. though, if i have not forgotten.. no one said i looked stressed..

i know i feel it.. but sometimes.. i think i'm not quite aware if i have it or not.. haven't really defined it and not quite sure the symptoms.. but think when i get easily irritable it's more or less due to stress or the lack of sleep..

but yar.. shall observe myself more to see when i get stress and wat i do when i am stressed.. find some good stress coping strategies cos alot of bad life habits are aquired during the time when ppl learn how to cope with stress..


hmm.. realised that there are lot of emotions and things i feel but have not been labelled properly.. so machiam like when i feel something.. but can't really put a finger to it to say that 'yes i am feeling this or that'.. and maybe cos of the lack of vocab to accurately describe how i feel bah..

i did something really stupid yesterday..

went to memorise the hardest conversation for jap (2 long liners) thinking that it was the convo that we are suppose to memorise and act out in class.. the thing was so bloody long lar, was complaining all the way while memorising.. and i had 3hrs to do it..

only 10mins after stepping into the class.. i realised that i had memorised the wrong one and that it was an easier one liner convo.. argh.. and with half an hr to memorise it before it was my turn to act it out infront of the class..

so yar.. tan-san.. don't go and oboemasu the lesson 25's convo.. wrong one sia..

long long meeting...

see adol, think adol, breathe adol..

publictity's outing was fun! haha.. love my pub-bers.. alot of familiar faces.. hope the new ppl are not intimidated.. but i have a feeling it will be great working with this bunch of ppl.. fun, spontaneous and quick minded ppl.. quick until i kenna suaned during the outing.. haha.. but it's ok.. very long time never kenna suaned liao..

many thanks to all the lao laos and the comm ppl who came down for the outing too! thanks for taking time out to be there, helping out and facilitating the ppl for me.. otherwise we would not have had such a wonderful outing..

hope this vibe in the subcomm will be able to transmit itself to the whole psych soc and the psych ppl in sch!



more work to do to keep this up.. must ganbatte..

think technology is failing.. haha.. messages keep getting lost in transcript..

ok.. heaven has aircon..

well.. at least my body says so..

just realised that i hadn't had a good conversation for a long long time after today's nice long chat in the canteen.. for the past month or so, the things that had been going thru my head were just things that i saw in front of me that needed to be done, be solved.. no wonder my head felt so heavy..

not that i didn't talk to ppl but.. just didn't had those that make me think and ponder on things that are deeper.. things that make me question myself about.. things that i have not been aware of.. and working my mind to think about them brings my mind to a clear and sharp state... well.. at least i feel that it is..

no idea why but my mind seems to love this kind of things.. maybe i should have taken philo.. erm... on second thoughts.. no thanks.. will die writing..



it is very disturbing to find urself taking out the store keys when u are standing in front of ur house door..



pls don't say hurtful things to ppl u love.. it hurts deep..