been criticizing, complaining and judging alot lately..

thot that part of me has already been toned down some wat but.. apparently.. it came back again.. and the environment and situation that i am in sort of fueled it somemore..

still want to change that.. be more caring.. more encouraging.. seeing the good part in things that ppl do and not jump into the all so familiar judging and criticizing.. but it seems like i am not on the road that would bring me there.. and i dislike it.. dislike the way i automatically judge and criticize..

and complaining was all that i have been able to do.. nothing constructive to help the situation.. don't know how come i become like this.. all this are making me feel worn out cos.. these things are not wat u will classify as positive actions.. tired..


i want to run away.. detach myself from this messy place and live in my own happy world..