updates come later.. sleep come first..


anyway.. something to ponder on after going for briefing for LTC..

'choice does not mean i get to do whatever i want. it means, given the context that i am in, what choice can i choose to move towards my goals.'

so.. wat is ur goal? and wat choice do u think that u can make? or are u paralysed by the situation that you are in?

most ppl never stop to think that there are choices to be made in every single action that they take. (if u don't include reflex action and the theory that there is no free will)

yes.. context is set.. but.. u are not.. i think that's the beauty about being a thinking being.. the brain is powerful.. use it.. other ppl's brains are powerful.. use theirs.. no problem can't be solved.. unless u restrict urself or don't want to solve it..

i choose therefore i am?

usually.. ppl tend to just react to things/context/ppl that will trigger a response.. why not after the trigger, pause and choose... then give a response.. instead of reacting.. do things differently for a change.. u might end up with some outcome that u will never dare imagine..


another something from the briefing..

showing anger or excitement is a sign that a value or belief is in the process of changing.. or that it is being challenged/violated..

and i thot back the past months.. and... i realised i have been slowing changing and becoming someone that i not quite like or know.. sigh.. no good.. shall try to drop the animosity i feel.. complain less.. do wat i can do, not just wat i need to do.. my choice.. i guess.. this is wat i can be in control off and will not regret...

i never regret being put in situations that sucked but i will regret if i don't do something about it..

don't ask me why.. i do not know wat's behind the belief that i should/need to do.. maybe i'm just plain stubborn..

oh.. but... think my briefing gave me an ans that i find seems to ans my inability to sieve from my unconscious mind why i don't know why i do the things i do..

my trainer said..

belief is formed two ways.. repetition.. or.. emotional experience..

maybe mine's repetition?


still quite amazed that even though i was 1hr and 10mins late for the 2hr briefing, wat was being said in that 50mins can let me think about and reflect upon so many things.. i am lucky to have the chance to experience the LTC..

i'm a lucky gal who don't stike toto.. i strike gold.. and it's priceless.. i have a collection of lovely golden ppl and golden experiences..