suddenly realise that i have forgotten how 好 胜 i used to be.. i used to tell myself how come that person can do it? if that person can, i can too.. it's just about how much effort and hard work i am willing to put into it..

it's been a long time since i use it to improve myself.. now.. the only time it ever shows up is when i'm arguing with ppl.. i don't back down from arguments cos it feels like i've lost and i also don't like to be wrong.. well.. that's something that i still need to change.. learning to keep my mouth from saying things that will make situation worse.. learning to see that i may be wrong and accepting it..

time to start using my 好 胜-ness to my advantage.. finding a role model..