to be thanked.. is something nice to have but not necessary for me...

wat i did not expected was to be scolded... i was quite indignant..

but.. after recovering from the feeling of being.. i dont know how to describe the feeling... just quite upsetting for me lar.. i do agree that i deserved it..

if you have asked me would i had done wat i did if it were a year or two ago, i would tell you it's not possible..

maybe i've really changed alot the past few years.. i don't quite recognise myself anymore..

it's not easy to deal w a sudden attack of an identity crisis when u are lacking sleep and had just blurted out an emotional speech..

so i left for a walk.. and i guess it worked.. felt alot better.. but there's still alot to think about..