wda called today with an offer...




*i uploaded the clearer pic below*

day 3 was a little overwhelming.. the front part lar.. cos i was taught the magazine stuff and the things i need to do for it is quite rushed... so.... yar.. if u add in the comics to the magazine's workload, the books' to that as well and on top of all these i need to help with the english section plus cashiering and stuff... it seems all too much...

i am trying to make myself breathe more cos it is a litttle different in bugis due to it's size and the workload of english section and other stuff like cashiering, etc.. are still very much a qn mark.. so it might not be as much as i imagined...

all those worrying things aside.. today i was more productive.. haha... got to do shrink wrapping of books, taping, shelving and listing... i feel useful... hahahhaha... cos the previous few days i only get to walk around look at books and try to help tidy the shelves if i see messy ones...

i wonder wat i will be taught on day 4...

day 2 was quite fun.. get to immerse myself in comics... so.. all of u manga/comic fans.. drool... cos i get to order them and see them first hand!! wahahahha... after that was gg thru novels.. very interesting... taiwan has a kind of novel that is very popular... comic novel... the cover page is like a comic but it's a novel.. and it writes about comic style stories... there's also pictorial books... web collated books.. and the normal romantic fictional novels..

i think i am gg to spend everyday in taka absorbing info from my mentors... 3 more days in taka.. alot to absorb.. i am learning from 4 experts... who are zai in comics, magazines, books etc... and i would have to go bugis and do wat they do.. haha.. i try not to think about bugis.. alittle stressed.. hahahha.. but i think the stress will go away once i know the full scope of wat i am to do..

so.. now... i'll just indulge in the coolness of being able to do wat i want with the chinese and comic section at bugis... hahahha... types of books to bring in.. how to display.. how to promote and hype certain books.... it's machiam like my mini haven.. muahahhaha... well.. of course.. this will only come after i master the daily runnings and am well equiped with the knowledge required to do something like that lar... but i am looking forward!

i survived the day...

alot of info to digest.. well.. that's expected.. i wasn't expecting the news that i was actually in taka's shop for a week to learn everything i can about chinese books sales, operation and logistics... and gg back to bugis side to carry out an almost one man showish act for the chinese section there.. a little overwhelming for a newbie... but ok lar.. i've got to say that the prospect of it is quite exciting too after i get pass the overwhelmed part...

the a little scary part is that when i go over to bugis... i have to learn it for the english section too.. so.. not sure how well i'll absorb and pick up wat i need to know to play my part at bugis.. the scope's alittle vague.. and covers alot of things.. so yup.. i guess the butterflies in my tummy will settle when i go bugis and find out more of wat is expected of me..

anyway.. the chinese section ppl are very nice at taka.. very friendly ppl.. i hope the bugis ppl are like that too.. and yar.. i really need MORE comfy shoes... i have to emphasis the more... i am already wearing very comfy shoes but somehow... it cannot fight against the long amt of time i spend on my feet.. need to buy socks too... can't wait for my pay.. surprisingly, it's coming soon! wahhahaha

ok.. enuf update... i still need to recall and revise wat i've learnt, iron my clothes, bathe, sleep..

groanz.... my body is cranky and protesting quite vehemently... it started with a bout of jitters that came from nowhere... soreness in my joints when i was gg for my driving lesson... then i started to feel nauseous while driving... hmm.. might be due to my jerky braking today but usually my braking's fine..

the nauseousness didn't stop after i ended my driving lesson.. it became worse when i breathed in the fumes and smoke on my way to the bus stop.. had to distract myself with loud music and by popping breath mints into my mouth every five mins...

now... home... feeling less nauseous but the head feels very heavy and pounding a little... grrrr....

wat a way to end my last day of freedom...

tmr.. first day of work!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i'm feeling very jittery right now.. don't know why... so weird... it's like waiting for the start of an exam i didn't study for.. or like... waiting to be caught by my parents for something wrong that i have done.. strange...

maybe it's the after effects of coffee plus the lack of sleep the previous night and freezing at a shopping mall..

omg... i look so slim then.. hahahaha... damn.. time to jian fei.. hahaha (first time uploading pics.. one of the few times i look slimmer than my bro.. wahahaha.. ok lar.. he only fatter by a tiny bit.. will load a clearer photo when i get it..)

quite fun to look thru old family photos... get to see the changes in everyone... hair style... weight... fashion... *cringe*

went to sign the papers... will be starting work next tues.... orchard for a wk then the rest of it will be at bugis... so.. if anyone wants to 'visit'.. don't go to the wrong place..

there's a few things in my mind.. and i tend to not blog when i am thinking in progress.. so.. here's a backdated post while i rest my mind...

14 feb was cedar fiesta.. went for it cos they were raising money for the revamp of the sch... it was quite fun.. many interesting carnival games.. very creative... and well.. there's the ever fun dunking machine... they even change rooms into makeup/manicure/hair saloon and wii gaming room.. bumped into some 4h friends.. it's been a long time since we chatted.. haha.. can't believe we were testing our memory trying to recall our class list of 40 at macs..

16 feb.. mon.. went for 8am driving lesson today.. the instructor let me outside circuit!! have to admit it's less boring gg round and round in the sch.. hahahaha... but 8am lesson... gah.. not too good.. spacing out's worse at that time.. but the sun is not high and the roads has less car... hmmm...

18 feb... wed... today i confirmed with kino on it's offer... i sold myself cheaply.. i hope it's worth it.. haha.. oh well.. work hard and we'll see..

meat cravings..

give comes before get...

AH~~~~~~~~~~~... i have a 3rd interview at kino! omg.. guess i didn't screw it up as badly as i thot..

die.. how how... i still awaiting wda.. gah... bad situation... sigh..

today's interview went better than yesterday's.. at least everyone was smiling and laughing during the interview.. no hard to ans qns.. hope it's enuf to get me a job..

i was almost an hr early for my interview.. it seems that when i decide to be early, the waiting time becomes very long.. oh well.. better early than late..

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went to vivo to watch movie with ma today.. quite nice.. sg production... love matters.. the guy inside the show looked very familiar and i was wondering why.. and it suddenly hit me when we were waiting for our bus home... that guy looks like my team leader from starhub.. almost the same.. the attitude.. the look.. the reaction... haha

and i did a little chinese book shopping today.. was inspired to browse chinese books after the kino ppl asked if i know any current hot chinese writers and i can't give them a name.. pageone has a huge chinese collection.. cool.. and i realised that chinese books are cheaper than english ones.. haha.. hmm.. but if judge by thickness, chinese one more ex lar... but i think on the whole chinese books are cheaper.. so.. quite tempted to switch to reading more things in chinese.. bought two books.. started reading one and it seems promising.. haha

nothing sesame paste dessert, egg tart and bake rice can't solve... yum yum..

i got flown airplane by ppl and guess who save the day? hahaha.... my dear body! jaw drop right.. hahaha..

well.. was suppose to meet some ppl at night for drinks.. so when body called and ask if i wanted to go out in the afternoon.. i thot.. ok lor.. since go out at night must as well go out early.. but boeing 737 flew while i was on my way to meet body.. and she say we can hang out till night..

so we did... it was nice.. as always... and she wasn't late.. hahaa.. bonus right.. oh.. and i met a jc friend today too! and i have been wanting to see her for a wk.. today was a lucky me day.. haha

i've been feeling a little off since i woke up this morning.. maybe cos i woke up more than 4 times before my supposed waking time... maybe cos i'm woke up on the wrong side of the bed.. don't know.. alot of nervous energy and cranky of sorts.. doesn't help that i had an interview at 10.30am which didn't go very well.. hope i didn't screwed it up.. gah... getting crankier by the minute.. not good..

OMG. my JC PE teacher added me on facebook!!

the omg part is... he had never taught me PE.... i only met him once... maybe twice at LTC when i went back to PJ to help out... and i believe out of the two times that we met... i chatted with him once... i think... about chicken rice.. wahahaha... we were chatting over lunch break during the LTC about the catered lunch...

not bad sia.. ppl do remember me.. haha..

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anyway... i do still occasionally post on the blog meant for society... still have some thots that are stuck.. i think it will take some time to unstuck them.. so if anyone's interested can still go and take a look lar.. hahaha..

went for another evening walk.. today's breezy.. or maybe the route i took was breezy..

today the route amazingly brought me to clementi/sunset way area.. 3 stops from nott's house.. almost died walking.. wrong choice of footwear... slippers.. gah...

chose this route of the park connector cos there was no map to show where it led to and was curious about wat my destination would be... i would have to say.. this route is the most scenic and breeziest out of the 3 routes branching out from toh guan.. my curiosity got the better of me and i ending up too far in clementi to head back home on foot.. hence i went ahead and reached the above mentioned place.. and managed to get onto a bus that goes directly to my house.. phew..

tired... hope i can sleep early today..

hmmmm... went for my first driving lesson today.. got to drive around in circles in the circuit.. my instructor's quite nice..

it seems that my habit of spacing out when i'm in a transport is affecting my driving.. sometimes i start to think about things half way thru a bend or when i'm just moving straight and it's quite disturbing cos the car goes alittle out of the lane.. gah... need to kick this habit.. well.. at least when i drive..

it's one of the reasons why i am not that interested in driving.. i can't have my thinking time.. i have to focus and concentrate on the road for extended periods of time... a little tiring for me.. and waking up early for driving lessons doesn't help...

ah... need to tune back to waking up early..

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kino 2nd interview tmr.. and wda 2nd interview on wed...

hmm... if i get both.. which will i pick?

lower pay, shift work and being immersed in books.. or higher pay, 5.5 day week and talking to ppl who are seeking jobs..

argh... tough choice.. i can see the road ahead with either one... both look equally tempting.. how how how?

maybe i shall let fate decide.. hopefully i'll get a sign..

finally went to explore more of the park connector.. and reached bukit batok nature park.. it has a nice little lake like thing, pond maybe, with cliff like stuff.. hmm.. my vocab for nature is very limited.. anyway... it's very refreshing to be there... did a little exploring.. got a little lost but managed to find my way back home.. being around nature always have a calming effect on me.. remind me to live in a place near water and lots of trees and shade..

i thot at 4pm i would not see much ppl at a park but was surprised to find quite alot of ppl there.. oh.. i must talk about how i found the park... i was on the park connector trail but when it led me from jurong to bukit batok, the trail suddenly disappeared... trying to find the way to the park with a vague memory of a map i saw halfway on my journey was not an easy thing to do.. luckily... i spotted this guy in a green color jp morgan tshirt and shorts with a towel and ipod.. it equates to 'i am gg to a park dressing'... so.... i stalked him! wahahhaa... and was trying to be discrete about it.. he turned his head around a couple of times as if wondering wat the hell is a girl following so slowly behind him when she looked like she was already halfway thru with her 'walk'..

anyway.. my hunches were correct.. he led me to the park.. and i quickly dumped him at the entrance to explore the park... after living 23 yrs in the west i am ashamed to say that i have never set foot in any park in the west.. so.. yup.. virgin trip there.. quite fun except i finally realise that 5yrs of not exercising has really caught up to me.. i was out of breath climbing up a slope.. omg.. so gross... must exercise more often..

walking long distances always gets me thinking.. well.. today the ppl i met in the park caught my attention... little did i know that the guy in green tee would be the only guy i saw that could fall into the i am in my 20s category.. everyone else was at least 35 and above.. there were young teen girls jogging... kids with their parents... but nobody was in their 20s.. well.. maybe one or two of the teen girls could be a 20 something.. but i am quite sure no guys in their 20s were there.. unless they all have a belly with balding head or they look under age.. alot of old couples were having their afternoon walks... it was sweet... but most of them were angmo couples.. alot of chinese men in their 50s... angmo guys in their 50s are damn cool lar.. they have bodies like 30 something.. after staring at the many ppl i've passed on my walk today.. i'm still very puzzled by the fact that i cannot find ppl in their 20s anywhere in the park.. especially guys... where did they all go?

i stopped observing ppl after i came out of the park and concentrated on getting my ass back home cos my legs seem to have turned into jelly after all the steps and slopes i've climbed.. i managed not to die on the streets of hunger and tiredness... and reached home at 6pm... didn't know i had walked for 2hrs... missed the early dinner that my family planned to have and jump straight into lou hei as my bro need to be back in camp by 7pm..

ok... i'm babbling.. it's getting a little boring and dry liao.. shall stop..

hmm... i don't know wat to write... alot of things doing somersaults in my head.. lets see if i can get some out..

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the msn feels awfully empty today... maybe cos sharon's not on it.. the farewell at the airport went pretty well.. except that ed thot it was fri instead of thu night... many apologies... did not realise i sent out the announcement of sharon's departure after midnight.. hence tmr night should have been tonight... sms ambiguity aside.. many came down to see her off.. it's great to hang around old ppl.. very nostalgic.. missed it.. alot.. more than i thot i would..
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watching gossip girl brings back alot of memories and resurfaced some thots that came across my mind these past 4yrs.. the choices i have made... the actions i have taken.. the believes that carried me thru and kept me on wat i thot and still think is the right path.. manipulation and drama is so not for me... i like being me.. the inside same as the outside... simple reasons... simple actions.. and always believe in the goodness of ppl.. giving chances for change.. accepting differences.. doing my best for something that i feel is worth it.. being happy..

some of the things that i have done may seem selfish to others.. and i agree that sometimes i really don't take other's feelings into consideration.. but who is perfect.. the ppl i see everywhere are dysfunctional in one way or the other.. the best.. or the worst part is.. they are either oblivious of it or they know but don't do anything about it.. hmm.. shall not cont on that track.. makes me sound cynical and jaded.. wat i wanted to say is.. despite my flaws, i am doing my best to take note of them and learning how to be a better person for the ppl around me.. there are ups and downs but i think i am making progress..

the increased self awareness and reflections have some side effects... realising that i have failed some ppl is really not a good feeling to have.. clearly knowing wat issues i am/have been avoiding is not something easy to handle.. knowing that i'm not always nice, that i can have bad thots and say bad things about ppl, even though those are facts, sometimes gross me out..

that's why these few months.. maybe even the whole of 2008.. i have been more or less in a state of inaction... trying to purge some bad habits and trying not to learn new ones.. staying away from ppl always gives me perspective but i guess my 2008 best friend has been avoidance.. many thots has been in my head in 2008 but they were fleeting, maybe cos i dare not delve too deeply into them.. i don't know if i can face wat i find.. so.. 2008 was filled with tv dramas, com games, food outings with the girls and train/bus rides with music from mp3 to force out the thots out of my mind.. only those relatively safe thots that i dare to dwell on gets played around in my head..

but as i always say.. things come back to haunt if u don't solve them.. and there is only a limited amt of compartment space that one has in one's brain.. chucking things into them has a limit.. and i think i have reached mine.. and i guess 2009 is a good time to do a big spring clean and start everything on a clean slate... new habits.. new thots.. new experiences.. time to start living again..


onwards!

manda leaving in a few mins time... went to send her off... she so horrible.. forgot wat she want to say to me... cheat my feelings... hahaha.. so i shall help her with her recall and post our msn convo here..

green color is me.. blue is manda...

maybe u pass to me on tues lor
huh? i will be seeing u on tues meh?
i love u so much of course will go and see u off wat
hahaha
hahaha
really ar??
wah.. u like tt later i tell u at the airport i love u too how? =x
hahaha
no scared
i bring video cam
will record and reply until u come back
waahhahaha
zzzzzzzzzz
dun hor!
haha
let me leave this place glamly can?
hahaha
hahah
can~~
let u practice a few times to say it perfectly
zzz
dun wan!
hahaha


not the first declaration i have received... i think it's too bad i'm not into girls... hahaha... i have no idea why i have nu ren yuan...

hmm.. weird.. i feel very uneasy today...

maybe cos i have a driving evaluation today and i haven't passed all the practices... and i haven't finish the theory book.. gah.. i wonder how manda pass without reading anything...

but why am i so nervous... weird...

still did not get enuf sleep... gah..... one should not drink baileys when one wants to sleep... it did help to bring about the state of sleepiness but.... upon waking up, it seems like one has not slept at all the past night...

and i was so gone from the sleepiness and the drinking that i forgot i was to leave my com on.. i was downloading game.. AH!!!!