watching shows sometimes trigger things that i want to forget... other times... allows me to think about some things and re-evaluate them.. from a different view... a different perspective... makes me understand what had happened better but yet nothing really changed outwardly... i'm still wondering if this kind of process is needed or i'm just wasting my time thinking abt things that can't be changed.. but i guess it brings me some kind of greater understanding of wat had transpired... allowing me to feel.... better?... i think... probably bring me closer to closure instead of keeping them in the dark little corners of my compartments........

spring cleaning... i guess....