is it very hard to understand how i think? why do ppl judge wat i do? do they expect me to change by voicing them out?

i think my objective on life is very different... and the ppl around me seem to have similar ones... why am i always the odd one out? do i not see wat they see? or have i seen pass them?

i might only get the answer on the day i die... that is if dementia or other mental illness don't claim my mind first..