detached
adj.
-Marked by an absence of emotional involvement and an aloof, impersonal objectivity.

cynical
adj.
-Believing or showing the belief that people are motivated chiefly by base or selfish concerns; skeptical of the motives of others.



not cynical leh.. don't believe the worst in ppl.. not really the worst in ppl.. but just.. i don't think cynically..

still think is more of detached...

but yes.. lack of surprise as an emotion and clamping down...

hmm.. now i have to re evaluated and trying to see how things link..

haha.. things that have occurred are starting to make sense..

interesting.. how lost i was for 20 plus years.. not being able to put words to wat i've experienced..