there are some things in life that you wish you can run far far away from and never have to face.. some issues that you don't want to touch or even resolve.. but they don't seem to want to let go of you..

i just want to be happy.. be in my own little world with ppl who appreciate me for who i am and not be always compared to some ideal that is stuck one's mind... am i not good enuf? why can't ppl just be happy for who i am?

i can never be perfect.. there are no such ppl around.. can't you just stop and look around and see that hey, maybe i am not as bad as you see me to be and that you should be grateful of wat you have?

ppl should not have kids if they can't give unconditional love to the children they bring into the world.. i feel that's the only criteria one needs to have a kid... to have a kid grow up without it is the most cruel thing to be done to them..

sigh.. i hate it when i'm oversensitive, bitter and irrational.. too much reaction.. no thot.. just the blind hatred.. the bitterness.. this is wat years of built up do to ppl.. scary.. i don't want to be controlled by my past.. i want to run far away from it.. yet it's a part of me..

one of the few things that i have yet learnt to let go...