looking thru my past entries brought back alot of memories...

still remember the time when i first started blogging, i didn't anticipate to have any friends come reading it.. it was solely for the reason of writing down my thots somewhere that i can safely keep and look thru when free..

posts were few and sporadic.. thots.. many and posts were long.. haha.. have pondered thru quite a few issues.. and they usually were done during times like today.. where i sit down in my living room.. just me and my laptop.. no one else to distract me.. just background sound of the train running pass and the occassional passing of a vehicle.. and my mind is clear..

didn't quite get this calm and clear feeling when i was posting for the past few weeks or maybe months though.. too much things to think about, too much things to do.. too much not really meaning that there is no time but just not enuf energy left to just sit peacefully and quietly to just blog..

alot of expriences in these few months.. like a pressure cooker.. probably learnt more in these few months than i did in years.. did it injustice by just describing the events that occured.. i've gained alot.. loss? maybe a little.. but the loss.. is not up for me to decide.. i can't control how people think and interpret wat i do and wat opinions that they form of me.. only time will tell..

definitely no regrets.. and if i were to live my life again.. i won't change anything.. not even the people i've met or the events that had occured..

people might have diff reasons for wanting to blog.. but me.. i just want to keep my memories alive and relive them when i have time..